...it's been quite a while since i have posted up som blogs. Oh well, what have I been up to??? Nothing much. Oh well, A LOT!.. just to be honest, damn! uh-oh lotsa troubles as well. Like my sister's issue over friends, betrayal and some financial issues. And this other guy that has been spying on me. And in the end, he made me look like i made him do that!. DURH? Who doesn't want privacy? He must really like me, but that just aint the way to get my attention... MY GOSH!



Anyhow, been watching lotsa movies lately. And watching my new fave series, PROJECT RUNWAY!.. like I have watched all their flippin seasons. Except Season 1. :(








But my fave of them all is Christian of Season 4.....SO FIERCE!!!!..lol.

:)) 3 days to go, it's Christmas! And before I even know it, its 2010... w0w! so0o0o0o looking forward to it. And i just know that 2010 is gonna be MY year!


I have come to realize that I don't need a relationship right now. I hope my Christmas would be fun, and hell yeah it will be!:)


NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS LIST:

1. Quit smoking. - and with that, minimizing doesnt count. I meant QUIT!
2. NO BOYFRIEND!- it wouldn't be that hard, come on!
3. Get my Learners License. - whew! that?? I really need to work on.
4. Get back in shape;p - even if that means eating greens and some serious dvd's and joggings early mornings! Goodluck to me! :)
5. Buy myself a new guitar - Geez, I seriously need one.
6. Start to communicate with my family in the Philippines. - whoaw, since when did I last spoke to them? like seriously now, that was 2 years ago :(
7. Budget my allowance/salary in much effective form of budgeting. - and it requires a lot of discipline and saying NO to gorgeous dresses in the mall! Wish me luck!
8. Pay less and Save more. - yeah, better save lotz and say NO to lots.
9. Study harder. - even if it means studying late at night after work... gotta work on it!
10. Minimize the parties and friends visit. - and that is the real challenge here!!!!!:'(

this journey continues. . .

All through these years, I have learnt so many things in my life that I have been applying to myself and regarding my own decision-makings. I can't say that I have been much of an expert in life because I still make mistakes. . .but I keep on standing despite my falls, and I still continue despite heartaches. Each year, there are so many things I keep on learning. And this year, I have feared to love again. I have been much focus on fixing broken relationships and it has broken me. . .not just apart, but into broken pieces.


Its the 1st of December, just another 30 days and another year to conquer. I have moved in the city of Pretoria and I still don't know what future has in store for me. I just know, it is the new beginning of great and best memories. Some more lessons to learn in life, and I just know, i have found my peace and happiness in life. I am not just moving on, but I want to move forward. I am so glad I have been given another chance in life again. I have a chance of appreciating people who have always been there for me but I often took for granted. I cannot wait to start.

I have been so sidetracked with love, love, love! That love gives someone happiness. But happiness is not only found in LOVE, and love doesn't have to mean feelings for the opposite sex. There is so much more to life than being attached to someone physically and emotionally, but it could also be a love for "something", not just by "someone". I am starting to love myself again with whole of me and everything good always follows.

I have been given another opportunity. And there is no such thing as broken dreams because you can always build up your dreams. And I am fulfilling mine. That for some reason I didn't know why those things in the past happened. Cried my heart out and blame myself as if it was all my fault. But everything happens for a reason, those things happened because I am meant to be where I am at right now, and the journey still continues.



This is my last post of sad stories because happiness just opened up once again that I thought I have found from my previous relationship. But I have found them once again, by loving myself. Have I forgotten the past? NO! But time will come, I will. In time. It might hurt me to think he has forgotten about me. But in time, just in time. . . And I just let the time heal all wounds.




This is just another beginning. Another beginning of everything good that will flow into my life:)

What makes me go on....

Life never stops in one problem. Life goes on. What makes life? Is it love or success? Which one of the two that makes life? Is it the love that you have been able to express, possess and feel? If you don't have it, would one's life could be something's missing? Or is it about success? Cars, firms, affilliations, compensations u get and other benefits in life. A massive house, luxuries and brands you're wearing??? What makes life? A beautiful life.


If love makes life beautiful, then what if LOVE is all you get? Financially, broke. Would one say he/she has beautiful life with full of love but struggling financially? Is love then enough? Is it just LOVE that makes life? Would one say he/she has beautiful life because he/she has been surrounded by LOVE?


Or is it about how far you have come in life? What car you drive and which neighbourhood you live. How many times you go on a holiday overseas each year, and degrees you have somewhat achieved? That makes life fabulous! But all these is worthless without someone to share with. Your loved-one. or loved-ones perhaps.


LOVE and FORTUNE. One worth nothing without the other one.

What makes me go on? Which one is rather important? I have been taught that love is far more important. Love is priceless. But as I grow older, money is what makes life. Not all the time maybe!. But sadly, yes! Money can take you places, money takes you in a better place. Money takes you in a better fortune, can get you a better car, better house, better education... with that? a better job, and sometimes, a better man comes along! Just life is so much BETTER! Some might disagree, but that's just reality. When one becomes rich and powerful, some people thinks they lack of love . They might get everything they want in life, but still, loneliness hunts them. I used to think too. But, if you would base that belief through observations, they are in fact happy! Happy with what they do, with what they have, and with what they still want to accomplish in life.


And for those who are against. They thought living in green paper is what makes one miserable. Maybe! But guess what? Like Mr. Donald Trump says, "If money makes one miserable, I'd rather be miserable with it than miserable without it". And if one might go against it, and think I've gone crazy, at least it can buy me a good therapist!


Life is not all about money. But in life, it requires money. money, money! Love is a natural feeling. Someone might say he/she knows someone who doesn't have a heart. But Love is always felt no matter how bad person they might think about him/her. There's always a story why one has gone bad. But that doesn't mean one is not able to love. It's like something we feel towards something or someone and comes out naturally. But money isn't. You work hard for it.


What makes people go on? Is it love? Or fortune? Has one gone to work and get paid by love and buy something in a grocery store with IT to survive?


What makes me go on...
my dreams, my ambitions, my loved-ones...
LOVE towards what i do, what i want to become, people I love makes makes me go on.
. . . .with money.

????

Blogging in my room... there are so may things in my head right now. And I just don't know how in words I can ellaborate them. Have I gone mad? I have lots of opportunities right in front of me, all I have to do is think of how i can improvise them. Life's good at me at the moment.. How come when I was in the relationship I think of what my life would be. How can I pull it out despite so many trials. What if I should just get out and be myself, and make it on my own? And now that I am out of that relationship and my life is so much better, I am thinkin' of what a beautiful relationship we had, of how my life would be if I was still together with him. . . which leads me to a conclusion that, why do people has no contentment...? or probably that isn't the case at all. I just miss him so much....


LIFE AS OF NOW. . .

Staying in a complex with my sister. Sharing rent:) I got a job waiting on January, and I am in my holidays, LOL. Me and my mom don't speak again with each other. I don't know but growing up not by her side kinda really draws me away, differences and we really have a bad times adjusting with each other. But life's good. I just appreciate it so much... especially having friends who have been here with me all this time. PLANS? uhmmm, do I have one right now? yeah, I got plenty in mind but plans are for myself only, haha!..


Just so thankful with my life right now. oh well, zer0 lovelife, but. . . it's okAy.
Everything happens for a reason, and I know that life has so much to offer that's why it happened. Maybe what me and my past relationship was something crazy-beautiful, but just wasn't meant to be......

TOTALLY RANDOM

..hate me for still missing you,
..when we clearly understood we are through
..for still crying deep inside without showing any tears
..and guess you don't know how that must really feel.



..i know you never meant to hurt me this way
..wish i should've prepared myself this would come one day
..'cuz living with so much hope that it'd be us in the end,
..is having an open wound,it scarred.....cut - o p e n.


..it's been quite a while now since we've been apart
..and all i do is begin where I should forget where we start
..but how would i do that when i try to recollect all these shattered pieces
..when i am picking up myself, i see me, myself and our memories.


..every song i listen to becomes our song.
..i try to keep this feeling to myself and cry when i'm alone
..pulling out a happy face so they won't see there's something wrong
..and they won't know i still love and care about you all along.



..i would want to go out at night and just be with friends
..show me a good time and this craziness might end
..i would laugh with them, agree and might nodded
..but they won't be able to see, you're at the back of my head.


..i miss you in a thousand ways.
..i long for you in a million ways.
..and its just so damn difficult to miss someone who will never come back
..i know it's the trigging reality, but still can't swallow the fact


..i know you will never come back
..i just know you don't care anymore
..i just can't let go of our memories when I constantly reminisce...
..when i know someone whose not interested is the most difficult one to please.

<

hectic...

It's almost a week now since I left Bloemfontein..
Oh well, lovin' en livin' a new life as we speak.. or write??LOL. Better yet, type???..haha!.. Anyways, enough of crap. My worrrrrdddd.. what a weekend! Was with friends, MADCHILD (shyne, me, kayesha, stephen, cherry, collin and celeste). It was so much fun. First was the housewarming just-friends-small-gathering in our complex, then had a braai and some drinkins' then off to a club. Talk about mad, like a real party-hardy madchild style,haha!.. Got home safely, thank go0dness!:)) Oh my word, like I don't wanna talk about the shits we went through just because one of us g0t blackout ova drunknessssss... my w0rrrrrrdddddd.. but n0 stress about it we g0t ova it and thats just about it, we were laughin at it afterwards...HAHAHAHA!!


Ai, life. I wonder what's in store for me afta 2 months. Yup, 2010:)

uhmmmmmmmm....

Has moved in Pretoria, last 11th of November,. I personally liked the place it just feels so homey:)) i am just so grateful with my life right now. And I just came to realize that I don't need a boyfriend at the moment. Sorry if there is someone or few that I have hurt but, I hope they (or especially there is specific one) that he must i hope extend his understanding of where I am coming from. To deal with lovelife right now is just taking another suicidal pills for me cuz it's just too much for me to take.

enough of lovelife. I just wanna stay single at the moment. and focus on rather much more important and grow!...financially, emotionally ,etc..etc. stability in life! and i will take that anyday:))


Thank googness I have learned along the way of this journey this year....:))

went to Lesotho and I had so much fun. haha:)) the details??nextime when i have much time to blog. ^___^ alam q0h nah qung sino ang 22o q0ng mahal...

gonna be a very busy day,hehe:))

9:32am, I should be getting dressed by now but I am still blogging,LOL. I'm going to Lesotho tomorrow. The next day is Christening Day of my cutie godson,hahahah!,SANTINO GABRIEL MORTERA...:)

I still need to find what I must wear and gift for my inaanak...:))

Few more days and my life is about to shift its path again... hopefully, heading to a new dreamt direction. I have added my ex on Facebook, MJ.. surprisingly he accepted it. Anyways, I hope he clearly understood that I am so over him and all the past between us is behind me. I mean, no feelings, no nothing:)

I don't know how I feel right now. I feel happy again with my life. No boyfriend but blessings keep on coming. Might not be so much but hey, I appreciate them a lot. Can't wait to see the new place :))

Anyways, I gotta hit the shower and get ready for some serious shopping!..

Be blogging again so0n:)))))

dot...dot...dot...

Phase of my life where I am just as confused as deciding to go for black or white,if you know what I mean.

Just got back from Johannesburg on the other day and slept over at Ateh Jhen's place and Khuya Mizael's. . .as we had a drinkin' session at their house the other night. Ateh Julie, Kuya Bembol, Ateh Arrah and Alvin were also there all the way from Lesotho. The next day was the birthday surprised party of Ateh Arrah for her boyfriend/fiance (who happened to be my cousin) and yeah, so we had a braai, and lotsa food in the haouse that I couldn't stop eating,LOL.


Leaving nextwek Monday for Pretoria. Finally, I am moving out, another adventure...wuho0o0o0o!.;p




oh my word!. i am moving out soon and it was just like a random decision. Oh well, it happens but i just feel like a total new experience again and people to meet. LOL.

just so great that I have managed to gain so many friends in Bloemfontein. And, Richard is just a total different story IF U MAY ASK cuz he is not a real man, lol. he can't face me like a man and he just threw everything between us like a man with no backbone!.HAHA! so0o0o, i guess i am so over that shit! finally!

s0o0o excited:)

leaving j0hannesburg later in the aftern0on. Haven't made a reservati0n of plane t0 bl0emf0ntein, yet, h0ping can make a b0oking early in the m0rning later.

i'll see HIM later,the new guy, and i just cant wait whats g0ing t0 happen:) our 1st date ever and he'll be staying in bl0em f0r 2 days. Then, a week with him and friends, whew!. I h0pe everything g0es well.


M0ving t0 pret0ria next week. New life,new j0b,new envir0nment:p
All i kn0w its a g0od start f0r me. . . .yeah!!!.s0 excited!.:D

in da bus...

itz 3am in the m0rning,everyones sleeping and seems like i am just one of 3 or 4 people who are n0t asleep! Going to Johannesburg after 2-3m0nths time and yeah, it would definitely bring s0me g0od old mem0ries. . . .but hey, its n0thing hectic! I AM N0T THAT HURT ANYM0RE! just to clarify:)


Riding the bus with just my shorts on and my black h0odies... listening to music on my fave playlist and bl0gging at the same time. This gurl right here has made it l0ok easier for herself, or at least I'm trying!:)


In the bus right n0w. To0 risky? N0t really. An0ther adventure perhaps? i guess. Time to think things over. . .


What do I have in mind right n0w? A lot of questi0ns:) Questi0ns with obvi0us answers yet n0t so definite... It was like denying the reality of the obvi0us! Sooner or later, i'd fall for an0ther kinda trap. . . But, guess right n0w, it'd be up to me wether i'd let myself get trapped or escape it! That??? I'll have to see for myself! Wether i have learned an0ther less0n or i'm just ab0ut "o0ps, i did it again" by britney spears! Ahahahaha... :D
..and yeah, i am talking about Life in general! Love, happiness, career and so on. . . . which makes LIFE!


Been w0ndering lately:

* When is the right time for me to fall ang get into an0ther relati0nship?
* Should i even bother myself going after it and chase one?
* Go with the flow and take the risks? Or deprive myself with one and get them later?
* Focus on rather much m0re imp0rtant things? Does that mean time to call myself BORING??!

etc,etc. . .


Told ya, the answers would be so obvi0us, but i'm making it much c0mplicated for myself. Or rather admitt it, maybe i aint ready just yet for these drastic changes in my life at the m0ment! "Buho0o. . . change already!.. Get on,gurl!. Forget about the past! Start a new life... How difficult would it be? D0nt think to0 much!".

EASIER SAID THAN D0NE.


Guess what folks? I am trying and doing the best i can. Time will tell??? That, i cant wait to see:))

another phase...

I am so glad I know through myself that I am finally starting to get on with my life. Have been planning to go for a couple of r0adtrips again. I can finally say "F*ck My Ex!" hahaha.. And it starts to feel better sayin' it. Mind my language, but that's just h0w it is... :p he screwed me over bef0re, AND i'm glad i am really starting to forget about him:) The only Richard I kn0w is an ass**** ,hahahaha!. Pardon me but it just feels better saying th0se shits to the one who treated me like shit:)


Anyhow,
Today is the day that I have allowed THIS OTHER GUY to officially ask me out. He's been g0ing at it for 2 m0nths n0w. I did give him friendship 1st and that was it. Told him I am n0t ready just yet for him to date me or see an0ther guy. But it has been alm0st two go0d m0nths and maybe, just maybe, a few dates w0uldn't kill me:)


He's actually g0od at heart. Full of sweet-talks! Which makes me smile and bothers me at the same time. LOL.



All I kn0w, i still deserve to smile, to love and to be loved... Although, I have told HIM to wait for the right time. I still wanna get to kn0w him, go on a few dates with him. . .and he kn0ws -it takes time until I can jump off to an0ther relati0nship again. I d0n't want him to be a reb0und (if he'd be my next bf). I d0n't want my past or anyone else occupying my head and my love. S0unds cheesy,but yeah...
I might have been hurt in the past but I wanna at least be fair to him. I d0n't want to deprive him of the attenti0n he deserves- just because I got scared of my failed relati0nships and getting hurt over again with an0ther c0mmittment. I still want to be able to love him c0mpletely. And right n0w, I might n0t be ready just yet, but c0uld be worthy to give it a try. After all, he said he's willing to wait:)

LIFE RIGHT NOW..

Life right now is okay. I've got friends, I'm with family and I am doing good with studies. Paying my own bills,nobody has to decide for me...which,what or where to go. Life of a singLe chiC and it amuses me everytime. Started not to think of him anymore. Try to think and see life outside the box and I can say I'm starting to move forward with my life again... I don't wanna let myself to get stuck at that crappiness again. And I know life has so much to offer for me now that he's gone:)


Been thinkin' about him recently and the past,but no matter how often, he wouldn't come back to me..so why bother? and if he ever does come back, I don't think I can still accept him anymore!:P


Planning of a trip again out of town, visit my friends and go nature!:)
Moving on with my life again.....


:))

baCk to sQuare onE.....

I have been busy trying to collect myself from shattered pieces. I know it's quite a challenge to get myself back... when I have given my all to a certain person, I've got nothing left for me now that he's gone... So, here I am again, finding myself again. Hopefully when I find it again, its a new tougher and stronger me! Oh, and a lot wiser to0;)

Easier said than done. I have been sounding so lame recently with my blogs and updates in Facebook. Pardon me but I always speak my heart out. Although I am not usually like this. In fact, you can never trace the problems in my eyes because I smile a lot, I fool around, socialize and act funny for the fun of it. I am not a hypocrite, don't get me wrong! I show what's the real me, a happy person. Maybe that is why I am having trouble showing such weakness to other person, I don't want them to see I am breaking down when they thought everything is fine....

Gladly I can post up some blogs and express my real feelings especially when I am hurt. When I am thankful and inspired and just don't have the guts to say so. I maybe writing lotsa craps for some... but, this is pure expression.. nothing more, nothing less...

Anyways, enough about being emotional. This has been an emotional and rocky road for me... but everyone's got their downside of life and ofcoures, like I said, I have been trying to find myself again. I have been communicating with friends, I travel, I socialize... and I am so glad I have so many friends. Like seriously, I've got lots.

But it's true. SOMETIMES YOU HAVE TO SACRIFICE SOMETHING GOOD, TO GET SOMETHING BETTER.




SOME PIX TAKEN DURING MY TRIP IN EAST LONDON WITH FRIENDS...









I was hoping when I come back in Bloemfontein, I will feel all refreshed and leave all the past behind. To be honest, not everything... but yeah, it helped a lot. Easing my mind out and forget for a while. Yeah, it was a good thing.



. .spending quality time with my crazy bestfriend....
drinking marathon...it was sooo muCh fun sharing crazy conversations!
DAMN, I couldn't stop laughing when they are all around!
true! - LAUGHTER IS BY FAR THE BEST MEDICINE!!!! ^^
....roadtrip was the best idea so far! and I guess I'ma have to do it again...
at least once in a while!;)
East London is so0o0o cool, whatta beautiful view, a real hideout for brokenhearts! joke!!!:P

.....AND THE BEST PART OF THAT TRIP WAS HAVING GOOD FRIENDS AROUND!

I'LL NEVER GET OVER YOU GETTING OVER ME

I hear you're taking the town again
Having a good time
With all your good time friends
I don't think that you think of me
You're on your own now
And I'm alone and free

I know that I should get on with my life
But a life lived without you could never be right


As long as the stars shine down from the heaven
As long as the river runs to the sea
I'll never get over you getting over me

I tried to smile so the hurt won't show
Tell everybody I was glad to see you go
But the tears just won't go away
Loneliness found me looks like it's here to stay

I know that I ought to find someone new
But all I found is my self always thinking of you

As long as the stars shine down from the heaven
As long as the river runs to the sea
I'll never get over you getting over me


Oh no matter what I do
Each nights a life time to live through
I can't go on like this
I need your touch
You're the only one I ever loved

And as long as the stars shine down from the heaven
As long as the river runs to the sea
I'll never get over you, getting over,
I'll never get over you,
I'll never get over you getting over me..

moving on....

So much pain.. so much promises that once again flushed down the drain.... It wasn't the first, yet I could never get used to this feeling.... I know it sounds lame, but I guess I gotta get through all these once again. Maybe I haven't learned that much from my previous experience. Guess I still loved someone with everything and anything I could give and did not spare for myself. If everything happens for a reason, my g0sh! I don't know whats the purpose of all these. I guess I am hurting this much because it is really hard to let go of someone you thought was perfect, your once happiness, your shoulder and thought was my future. I guess the hardest part of letting go was letting go of Best I Ever Had....

c0nfused...

Leaving bl0emf0ntein early in the m0rning t0m0rrow,yet I d0n't feel sleepy. It's been weeks n0w that I d0n't get pr0per sleep since the break-up. I would do all the chores or anything I needed to do, but my mind is still with him... and I just don't know how to focus.

I would think if maybe he's thinkin' of me the way I'm thinkin' of him. Hoping someday we'll see each other again.. and we could still fix what has been broken out of a beautiful relationship. But through all those thinkings, I wanna breakdown. How can I have so much hope over someone who's willing to let go? It hurts so much, I am in denial. And the fact that I am lying to myself, that all these can't be true.....
I am at this stage where I pretend I am alright, when I know I am not.
Where I smile but I fall apart.
It just hurts so much... it cut me too deep. And I still don't wanna accept the fact that what happened once has been repeated. And what hurts the most is by getting hurt over someone totally unexpected. He was the last person I could ever think of who would ever hurt me like this. He was the least I could ever think of, but hurt me the worst......


There is someone out there, and he's been making time for me. I don't know but.. he makes me happy everytime I talk to him. But that's just it. I am still scared. And I don't know wether I am depriving myself of freedom or happiness. All I know I am depriving myself of getting hurt again.... in the best way I know...
all that I can.

his birthday without me....

It's almost 4 o'clock in the morning and I don't even feel sleepy,,at all!!!
It's his birthday t0day and I thought I was gonna be a part of it. Oh well, durrhh.. we just br0ke up. But to0 bad, I wouldn't be celebrating it with him...

I sent him a message at 2am.
I have asked almost all my friends wether I should at least send him my greetings even through sms or rather leave it out. But like some of my friends suggest, I should. I was thinking if I would send him a message maybe he would just ignore them and I might just get rejected... unlike when I wouldn't, at least I d0n't have all these thinkings. I am scared with the fact that I am finally becoming okay without him,, and over with one message, I might just as well get hurt over again...
But I took the possible consequences, I sent him one.
This other friend of mine told me..., "send him one, without expecting anything in return like a call or rejection. Just send it BECAUSE you remember, not because you wanna know what his reaction would be" and he's absolutely right.

I just wished him a happy birthday, more success and happiness in life.

I guess the thoughts/remembering is what really counts.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY RITCHIE...

idk...

I have n0 idea how l0ng has it been since we br0ke up. I d0n't even kn0w wether I should be glad or be sad with the fact that me and him separated.

I'm trying n0t to think of him,n0t to cry,n0t to call him,sms him... I'm trying n0t for him to think I am still into him. Or am i? I don't kn0w. I just wanna take him out of my head... I wanna m0ve on.
He was s0 special to me. I did everything I can to keep our relationship work! But he threw all that away. It was so easy for him to get over me that quickly because I had m0re sacrifices in that relati0nship,and n0 matter how I explain myself how I treasured our relationship- he w0uldn't kn0w! Because he did n0t go thr0ugh all the things I did- just to be with him!

It hurt a lot. I have cried over him like hell, th0ught i w0uld go crazy! Did n0t sleep,c0uld n0t eat. Got rejected over and over.
I thought i could still save it if i would lower my pride, but he kept pushing me away...until my tears ran dry, my heart went numb and i just d0n't kn0w wether to hate or blame myself! All I kn0w, I am d0ne with him.

I d0n't wanna enter s0meone's heart when he shuts its do0r everytime I try to kn0ck!

hurtin'

Its been days that passed since we br0ke up. I tried to focus much of my time on s0me other things.. So i w0uldn't feel the pain. But here i am, tryin to be brave but i brokedown:'(
My pillow soaks in tears,and itz 2 o'clock in the m0rning.... I can't sleep:'(
My eyes are sw0llen,feels like i can't breathe with all these heavyloads inside me... I'ma explode,i'm so hurt. I am right at this point again...,br0kenhearted:'(

my bestfriend's party....

lol. it's nothing like MY BESTFRIEND'S WEDDING kinda thing. It was her 22nd birthday held at Barba's Cafe on the 29th of August. It was a Saturday, so lotsa people made it. Oh well, some of the peeps/old friends were invited as well but didn't make it. It doesn't matter, it turned out to be as fun as expected.


There were lots of srories,MY GOSH!!!,,I don't even know where to start! haha..
There are so many things to tell, but..let me just keep the story short.
My bestfriend has asked me to organize the party for her.Actually, I volunteered....but ,in the end it kinda became a deal or something that I should, cause they would be coming from Easter Cape which is obviously far from here. Thought of celebrating it in Cubana, but we kinda have a problem wether everyone invited would be able to wear formal attire on such occassion. Cubana only allows semi to formal attires only, and all of them to be cooperating with us was not a definite answer.

BUT OVER ALL, IT TURN OUT TO BE FUN!!!!

*I wanted to post more but something came about, I just lost my excitement*

JUST CHECK OUT SOME OF THE PICS TAKEN AT THE EVENT...

Thinkin' en talkin' craps...or is it really crap???^^

Its quarter past ten in the evening, Ritch hasn't called yet while I'm here listening to music. "Battlefield" by Jordin Sparks - it reminds me of my bestfriend in Primary, Catherine Vibanco. She's just crazy at that s0ng:P


"Fire Burning" is n0w playing -by Sean Kingston. Damn, i love this track! It makes me wanna jump off this chair and hit the clubs. This track is sick! It just enhances ur party-m0od. I guess a bit bad idea on a Thursday evening;)


Its kinda weird I'm feeling this way. I wanna do s0mething but I can't really point out what exactly it is. I d0nt kn0w- I feel like s0mething unexpected is on its way to surprise me!


Oh,have you guys heard the song called "When Love Takes Over" by Kelly Rowland? Damn- that's a nice s0ng in a g0od beat:P n0thin' ,just sharing it witcha!.. HA HA HA! Told yah,i wanna do s0mething but IDK what it is just yet so here I am writing crap.


Bhez (bestfriend )told me t0 organize the venue for her birthday to be held on m0nthend. Thinkin' of CUBAÑA. At least it has great ambiance,c0cktails and hubbly- nice sp0t to chill then hit the club scene afterwards.


I h0pe they can c0me down here for real.
As for me,I'm just right here...,n0 night-outs or chills, be h0ping just to be with her cuz i miss my bestfriend nah:)

Jhen's birthday celebrated with a celeb,lol.

Nothing beats a good party with a good company. Too bad, we didn't hang out quite as long as expected. But over-all, it turned out to be fun! Everybody danced^^ oh well not all but majority of the group did.


First bonding with ate arrah was actually fun... I was thinking she would actually burn the chair and let us dance on the dancefloor!
But damn, that gurl got some moves!!!:)
I truly hope there will be some other time. Although boyfriend-issue kinda emerge between the two. HEHE:)^.^


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and don't forget Gareth Cliff was there in BARBA's CAFE..
SA's TV personality, a great dj and one of the judges of IDOLS.


Too bad my bestfriend, Azel couldn't make it;(
Will make it on her birthday fosho!



...and ofcourse, who would have thought Ateh Julie, Ninio en Bhembol would make peace with me?! (cuz they are friends with my ex). and thought they hated me. I am just so glad everything is all behind us and move on.....

DEFINITELY A NIGHT TO REMEMBER.
*NOT ANOTHER CINDERELLA STORY *

parrrttttyyyy!!!

oh well,en0ugh drama.. Tom0rrow is the day! Oh, THE NIGHT! 8)

yeah-
Friday baby!
FLY-DAY!

long distance.

it's 7:10 in the m0rning. I'm awake, just lying down on bed after waking up Tenten (my y0ungest sister) to prepare for sch0ol at 6.
Quickly checked my messages in facebo0k and wanted to sms Ritchie like usual stuff in the m0rning...but,i want him to sms me 1st this time ar0und (cuz i usually wake up earlier than him).


Yesterday was n0t fun at all. I was missing him badly...alth0ugh we called each other lots of time,sms-es plus we had a chat last night (msn). I d0n't even kn0w h0w i can do this. We are miles apart. It drives me crazy. I wasn't feeling like this before, tryin' to c0nvince myself it's for the future. Hayyy...

I gotta be str0ng. Spendin' a week with him made me love him even m0re.

D'y0u kn0w the feeling of wanting to be in a specific place and time with that pers0n but y0u just can't? You saw each other after such a long time and feels like the time has been running sh0rt? The time flies so fast that y0u want to stay m0re but u just can't? i just can't...

Yes,this is pure em0ti0n. But I have learnt that s0metimes we must n0t be carried away by just em0ti0ns. Time will c0me and we will be together again. I must just wait. Just a little sacrifice and it's all for the best.
Portrayin' str0ng,i can make it...but i miss him s0 bad..
I wanna be with him right n0w.
See his face,spend m0re time with him.
Waaaah- this is bad. I gotta focus on what i came here for.

5 m0nths..
5 m0nths m0re..
5 m0nths of sacrifice..
We already came a long way. It's alm0st 4 m0nths n0w of being apart. Saw each other but never seem en0ugh- but we can get thr0ugh these.


S0me says long distance never w0rks,
but...
i've ch0sen to hold on.
this 5 more m0nths of sacrifice..
if in the end,
Being with you for the rest of my life...
is worthwhile waiting for....

11:48pm...

..and I can hardly sleep! Missing MY BABY.


Just br0wsin' and checked out Glamour Mag website. I wanted to read a few article but I wasn't just in the m0od of reading.


Ate Arriane, Azel, Ate Jhen, the rest of my Kuya's (means brother) /cousins and I, have been planning to go out this weekend and go to Waterfront,t0 s0me event goin' on. Oh well, the first b0nding ever with Ate Arriane:)


Ritch called and t0ld me he'll visit Tony,his friend...wh0's havin a h0usewarming party,i think!
Those things are okay with me, Damn I trust him s0 much- cuz I kn0w he can be!
Just told him n0t to drink so much so he'd be able to still drive esp. at night! Or, just go h0me the next day.. he's off t0m0rrow anyway!


Whew- i wish I can fetch my study materials by t0m0rrow.

Its kind of late. I still have to wake up early.

im havin' a blast!

Oh well, forget about the fact that people talk sh*t, discouragements and so on...
The fact that I can almost go crazy missing mah babyboo..hectic time-sched, frustrations...etc,etc.. all the negative thoughts I could think of!- it's all good, I've got reasons to celebrate LIFE!


Been with friends lately. Saw the love of my life, RICHARD ofcourse and everything goes on my way!!! I am just so damn lucky! and yeah, I have finally found happiness. The secret??? just like what it says on my page, know how to get rid of people who only brings you down, and guess what peeps?? Believe me, who says it doesn't work? THEY ARE DOUBTING!


Enough of lecture I am sure you are also capable of thinkimh as such. Here are some random photos of previous weekends. If you are not interested, don't look! LOL.









AND during mah one week visit in JOHANNESBURG...


....moments with ritch.






b0nding with friendz....had loads of fun!









oh well, this is from me to you for now...
Be blogging soon. And posting up new picx.
Thanx for those readers who send me private comments:p


Grab every opportunity that u get.
Live life like u want it!
Life is a PARTY!
.....n0t literally, if u know what I mean!:)




CHEERZ!!!!**

esZhen'14