I am so glad I know through myself that I am finally starting to get on with my life. Have been planning to go for a couple of r0adtrips again. I can finally say "F*ck My Ex!" hahaha.. And it starts to feel better sayin' it. Mind my language, but that's just h0w it is... :p he screwed me over bef0re, AND i'm glad i am really starting to forget about him:) The only Richard I kn0w is an ass**** ,hahahaha!. Pardon me but it just feels better saying th0se shits to the one who treated me like shit:)
Anyhow,
Today is the day that I have allowed THIS OTHER GUY to officially ask me out. He's been g0ing at it for 2 m0nths n0w. I did give him friendship 1st and that was it. Told him I am n0t ready just yet for him to date me or see an0ther guy. But it has been alm0st two go0d m0nths and maybe, just maybe, a few dates w0uldn't kill me:)
He's actually g0od at heart. Full of sweet-talks! Which makes me smile and bothers me at the same time. LOL.
All I kn0w, i still deserve to smile, to love and to be loved... Although, I have told HIM to wait for the right time. I still wanna get to kn0w him, go on a few dates with him. . .and he kn0ws -it takes time until I can jump off to an0ther relati0nship again. I d0n't want him to be a reb0und (if he'd be my next bf). I d0n't want my past or anyone else occupying my head and my love. S0unds cheesy,but yeah...
I might have been hurt in the past but I wanna at least be fair to him. I d0n't want to deprive him of the attenti0n he deserves- just because I got scared of my failed relati0nships and getting hurt over again with an0ther c0mmittment. I still want to be able to love him c0mpletely. And right n0w, I might n0t be ready just yet, but c0uld be worthy to give it a try. After all, he said he's willing to wait:)
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