oh well,en0ugh drama.. Tom0rrow is the day! Oh, THE NIGHT! 8)
yeah-
Friday baby!
FLY-DAY!
To Lee,
From the moment I saw you, you caught my attention. I knew deep inside that it was really something special. And I gotta know what that feeling was....
You got me speechless when you first held my hand.
I thought of forever the first time we kissed under the rain....
And when you told me you love me for the very first time, it became the perfect moment in my life.
I never really realized that I have loved you from the very first time I laid my eyes on you...........^^,)
And I am so grateful we are still together since the day we met,
...................and will always be together.
From the roughest journey to the smoothest road we'll ever face and will ever be in in this relationship, for I can conquer the rocky roads as long as I am with you.
I LOVE YOU.
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
long distance.
it's 7:10 in the m0rning. I'm awake, just lying down on bed after waking up Tenten (my y0ungest sister) to prepare for sch0ol at 6.
Quickly checked my messages in facebo0k and wanted to sms Ritchie like usual stuff in the m0rning...but,i want him to sms me 1st this time ar0und (cuz i usually wake up earlier than him).
Yesterday was n0t fun at all. I was missing him badly...alth0ugh we called each other lots of time,sms-es plus we had a chat last night (msn). I d0n't even kn0w h0w i can do this. We are miles apart. It drives me crazy. I wasn't feeling like this before, tryin' to c0nvince myself it's for the future. Hayyy...
I gotta be str0ng. Spendin' a week with him made me love him even m0re.
D'y0u kn0w the feeling of wanting to be in a specific place and time with that pers0n but y0u just can't? You saw each other after such a long time and feels like the time has been running sh0rt? The time flies so fast that y0u want to stay m0re but u just can't? i just can't...
Yes,this is pure em0ti0n. But I have learnt that s0metimes we must n0t be carried away by just em0ti0ns. Time will c0me and we will be together again. I must just wait. Just a little sacrifice and it's all for the best.
Portrayin' str0ng,i can make it...but i miss him s0 bad..
I wanna be with him right n0w.
See his face,spend m0re time with him.
Waaaah- this is bad. I gotta focus on what i came here for.
5 m0nths..
5 m0nths m0re..
5 m0nths of sacrifice..
We already came a long way. It's alm0st 4 m0nths n0w of being apart. Saw each other but never seem en0ugh- but we can get thr0ugh these.
S0me says long distance never w0rks,
but...
i've ch0sen to hold on.
this 5 more m0nths of sacrifice..
if in the end,
Being with you for the rest of my life...
is worthwhile waiting for....
Quickly checked my messages in facebo0k and wanted to sms Ritchie like usual stuff in the m0rning...but,i want him to sms me 1st this time ar0und (cuz i usually wake up earlier than him).
Yesterday was n0t fun at all. I was missing him badly...alth0ugh we called each other lots of time,sms-es plus we had a chat last night (msn). I d0n't even kn0w h0w i can do this. We are miles apart. It drives me crazy. I wasn't feeling like this before, tryin' to c0nvince myself it's for the future. Hayyy...
I gotta be str0ng. Spendin' a week with him made me love him even m0re.
D'y0u kn0w the feeling of wanting to be in a specific place and time with that pers0n but y0u just can't? You saw each other after such a long time and feels like the time has been running sh0rt? The time flies so fast that y0u want to stay m0re but u just can't? i just can't...
Yes,this is pure em0ti0n. But I have learnt that s0metimes we must n0t be carried away by just em0ti0ns. Time will c0me and we will be together again. I must just wait. Just a little sacrifice and it's all for the best.
Portrayin' str0ng,i can make it...but i miss him s0 bad..
I wanna be with him right n0w.
See his face,spend m0re time with him.
Waaaah- this is bad. I gotta focus on what i came here for.
5 m0nths..
5 m0nths m0re..
5 m0nths of sacrifice..
We already came a long way. It's alm0st 4 m0nths n0w of being apart. Saw each other but never seem en0ugh- but we can get thr0ugh these.
S0me says long distance never w0rks,
but...
i've ch0sen to hold on.
this 5 more m0nths of sacrifice..
if in the end,
Being with you for the rest of my life...
is worthwhile waiting for....
Monday, July 27, 2009
11:48pm...
..and I can hardly sleep! Missing MY BABY.
Just br0wsin' and checked out Glamour Mag website. I wanted to read a few article but I wasn't just in the m0od of reading.
Ate Arriane, Azel, Ate Jhen, the rest of my Kuya's (means brother) /cousins and I, have been planning to go out this weekend and go to Waterfront,t0 s0me event goin' on. Oh well, the first b0nding ever with Ate Arriane:)
Ritch called and t0ld me he'll visit Tony,his friend...wh0's havin a h0usewarming party,i think!
Those things are okay with me, Damn I trust him s0 much- cuz I kn0w he can be!
Just told him n0t to drink so much so he'd be able to still drive esp. at night! Or, just go h0me the next day.. he's off t0m0rrow anyway!
Whew- i wish I can fetch my study materials by t0m0rrow.
Its kind of late. I still have to wake up early.
Just br0wsin' and checked out Glamour Mag website. I wanted to read a few article but I wasn't just in the m0od of reading.
Ate Arriane, Azel, Ate Jhen, the rest of my Kuya's (means brother) /cousins and I, have been planning to go out this weekend and go to Waterfront,t0 s0me event goin' on. Oh well, the first b0nding ever with Ate Arriane:)
Ritch called and t0ld me he'll visit Tony,his friend...wh0's havin a h0usewarming party,i think!
Those things are okay with me, Damn I trust him s0 much- cuz I kn0w he can be!
Just told him n0t to drink so much so he'd be able to still drive esp. at night! Or, just go h0me the next day.. he's off t0m0rrow anyway!
Whew- i wish I can fetch my study materials by t0m0rrow.
Its kind of late. I still have to wake up early.
Friday, July 24, 2009
im havin' a blast!
Oh well, forget about the fact that people talk sh*t, discouragements and so on...
The fact that I can almost go crazy missing mah babyboo..hectic time-sched, frustrations...etc,etc.. all the negative thoughts I could think of!- it's all good, I've got reasons to celebrate LIFE!
Been with friends lately. Saw the love of my life, RICHARD ofcourse and everything goes on my way!!! I am just so damn lucky! and yeah, I have finally found happiness. The secret??? just like what it says on my page, know how to get rid of people who only brings you down, and guess what peeps?? Believe me, who says it doesn't work? THEY ARE DOUBTING!
Enough of lecture I am sure you are also capable of thinkimh as such. Here are some random photos of previous weekends. If you are not interested, don't look! LOL.
AND during mah one week visit in JOHANNESBURG...
....moments with ritch.
b0nding with friendz....had loads of fun!
oh well, this is from me to you for now...
Be blogging soon. And posting up new picx.
Thanx for those readers who send me private comments:p
Grab every opportunity that u get.
Live life like u want it!
Life is a PARTY!
.....n0t literally, if u know what I mean!:)
CHEERZ!!!!**
esZhen'14
Sunday, July 19, 2009
whatta long holiday!!!
It has been a week now since I went down here in Johannesburg. I saw Richard and my sister ofcourse, and that is all that matters. It has been over a month I haven't seen them and I missed them so badly, like you have no idea.
Being with Ritch is the best feeling. I have realized I don't wanna be with somebody else if it's not him. I am just so lucky to have him. He takes good care of me which I haven't been takin care of like that in my entire life! (after my grandma:c )
I just don't wanna hurt him...ever.
Been out with a new friend Yvonne and her friend from Las Vegas. Too bad we didn't hang around as much but, it's kei. I just wanna be with mah Boo. We went to Montecasino, watched a movie then ate dinner in "Meat Co.".
Been with my friends after so long. It has been quite a while since we bonded like that. It was Stephen's birthday and had a house party. It was one of those wicked nights, hahahaha.. like I don't wanna ellaborate them in here, LOL.
But it was cool. They decided to go to CANTINA TEQUILLA asusual. I wanted to go home but, Ritch allowed me to spend some gurlz-night-out, being totally understanding!..am so damn lucky he is not one of those guyz.. u know what I'm sayin'.
It was a wicked wicked night! Just a week of stayin' here, I just don't wanna go back to Bloemfontein,hahaha! I just wanna be with him:(
But ofcourse we gotta make sacrifices. If it is the future we talkin' about here. Hayy...but I know it's for the best.
Enough freakin' drama.
WHATTA LONG-FUN-ROMANTIC-WICKED HOLIDAY!!!!
Being with Ritch is the best feeling. I have realized I don't wanna be with somebody else if it's not him. I am just so lucky to have him. He takes good care of me which I haven't been takin care of like that in my entire life! (after my grandma:c )
I just don't wanna hurt him...ever.
Been out with a new friend Yvonne and her friend from Las Vegas. Too bad we didn't hang around as much but, it's kei. I just wanna be with mah Boo. We went to Montecasino, watched a movie then ate dinner in "Meat Co.".
Been with my friends after so long. It has been quite a while since we bonded like that. It was Stephen's birthday and had a house party. It was one of those wicked nights, hahahaha.. like I don't wanna ellaborate them in here, LOL.
But it was cool. They decided to go to CANTINA TEQUILLA asusual. I wanted to go home but, Ritch allowed me to spend some gurlz-night-out, being totally understanding!..am so damn lucky he is not one of those guyz.. u know what I'm sayin'.
It was a wicked wicked night! Just a week of stayin' here, I just don't wanna go back to Bloemfontein,hahaha! I just wanna be with him:(
But ofcourse we gotta make sacrifices. If it is the future we talkin' about here. Hayy...but I know it's for the best.
Enough freakin' drama.
WHATTA LONG-FUN-ROMANTIC-WICKED HOLIDAY!!!!
Saturday, July 18, 2009
..d0n't kn0w what t0 call this p0em,im open with suggesti0ns^^
..i have travelled s0 far, yet n0t far en0ugh
..s0 many r0ads t0 f0llow, yet where is the right path?
..i have learnt t0 f0llow c0urse of different r0ads,
..even s0metimes when i carry s0 much heavy loads!
..c0uldn't st0p tears fr0m fallin down my face
..there were times i felt, i was just a disgrace
.."i d0n't want that! i g0tta change it!"
..alth0ugh it seems hard,"i g0tta face it!".
..it's a l0t easier said than d0ne
..can't even remember where i began
..f0rced myself t0 believe "yes,i can!"
..never will i cry again, i t0ld myself..
.."can they hurt me again?-n0 they can't!".
..i c0uld break d0wn and cry- sit in the c0rner,
..i c0uld make myself l0ok like a f0ol -and a l0ner!
..it's a matter of ch0ice if i w0uld still let myself-
..i d0n't ever wanna wake up with regrets i felt.
..am i full of myself 'cause i finally learned?
..("y0urself" is the only one y0u can depend).
..happiness is a choice and we can create them
..while it is there,
Grab them while y0u can!
..my life aint perfect as I claimed them t0 be,
..s0me pe0ple are hatin' and bitchin' at me!
..i have learnt my less0n,"oh yeah,i did!",
..pe0ple like them are tr0uble,"i c0uldn't care less or give ****..."
..phases of my life,they weren't there f0r me..
..i was already on the gr0und,- they stepped d0wn on me..
..what was at the b0tt0m sh0uld be on t0p!
..in the end,i will have the last evil laugh!
..hahaha i ain't that mean..
..being mean is n0t really my scene.
..s0meday i might ask them "h0w have u been?"
..everything they did t0 me
might strike them- hit them hard, realizin'!
..s0mething i've learnt,"when one do y0u wr0ng,d0 them right",
..it pisses them off, wants t0 explode like dynamite!:D
..what i'm trying t0 say is y0u will really get th0se type of pe0ple-
..but never ever let them get y0u trapped in a big h0le!
..d0n't let anyone EVER bring y0u d0wn
..smile at the w0rld,d0n't EVER fr0wn.
..l0ve y0urself m0re than anyb0dy else-
..'cause when y0u learn t0 love y0urself,
-All the g0od things will f0llow!
..then n0 one in this w0rld
can EVER put u in a d0wnlow!
..eszhen..
..14..
..s0 many r0ads t0 f0llow, yet where is the right path?
..i have learnt t0 f0llow c0urse of different r0ads,
..even s0metimes when i carry s0 much heavy loads!
..c0uldn't st0p tears fr0m fallin down my face
..there were times i felt, i was just a disgrace
.."i d0n't want that! i g0tta change it!"
..alth0ugh it seems hard,"i g0tta face it!".
..it's a l0t easier said than d0ne
..can't even remember where i began
..f0rced myself t0 believe "yes,i can!"
..never will i cry again, i t0ld myself..
.."can they hurt me again?-n0 they can't!".
..i c0uld break d0wn and cry- sit in the c0rner,
..i c0uld make myself l0ok like a f0ol -and a l0ner!
..it's a matter of ch0ice if i w0uld still let myself-
..i d0n't ever wanna wake up with regrets i felt.
..am i full of myself 'cause i finally learned?
..("y0urself" is the only one y0u can depend).
..happiness is a choice and we can create them
..while it is there,
Grab them while y0u can!
..my life aint perfect as I claimed them t0 be,
..s0me pe0ple are hatin' and bitchin' at me!
..i have learnt my less0n,"oh yeah,i did!",
..pe0ple like them are tr0uble,"i c0uldn't care less or give ****..."
..phases of my life,they weren't there f0r me..
..i was already on the gr0und,- they stepped d0wn on me..
..what was at the b0tt0m sh0uld be on t0p!
..in the end,i will have the last evil laugh!
..hahaha i ain't that mean..
..being mean is n0t really my scene.
..s0meday i might ask them "h0w have u been?"
..everything they did t0 me
might strike them- hit them hard, realizin'!
..s0mething i've learnt,"when one do y0u wr0ng,d0 them right",
..it pisses them off, wants t0 explode like dynamite!:D
..what i'm trying t0 say is y0u will really get th0se type of pe0ple-
..but never ever let them get y0u trapped in a big h0le!
..d0n't let anyone EVER bring y0u d0wn
..smile at the w0rld,d0n't EVER fr0wn.
..l0ve y0urself m0re than anyb0dy else-
..'cause when y0u learn t0 love y0urself,
-All the g0od things will f0llow!
..then n0 one in this w0rld
can EVER put u in a d0wnlow!
..eszhen..
..14..
Friday, July 17, 2009
hey!!!..
Hope you liked my new template...B
Be blogging s0on,
enj0y your weekendz!!!
PARTY LIKE A ROCKSTAR!!!!
_X0X0_
Be blogging s0on,
enj0y your weekendz!!!
PARTY LIKE A ROCKSTAR!!!!
_X0X0_
Saturday, July 04, 2009
...i'm baCk!!!!
hey...guess who's back after 2 months of keeping some active readers outdated. Well,surely you will hear from me now and then from now on...
There are lots of things happened in the past 2 months,...
hmmmm...my study materials are finally on its way, haha.
Confused wether to take up AUDIO ENGINEERING although I already signed up for TV Productions...and hectic schedule, stuff like that.
I've been busy with roadtrips lately,nakzzz!
And i thought I can share some pics with the readers.
Here is one of the photo taken in a club called "NUMB3RS", it was cool. It was a bit crowded, but me and my girl, azel couldn't careless,haha.
ciao 4 now...
post up probably tomorrow,
cheerzzz!!!
There are lots of things happened in the past 2 months,...
hmmmm...my study materials are finally on its way, haha.
Confused wether to take up AUDIO ENGINEERING although I already signed up for TV Productions...and hectic schedule, stuff like that.
I've been busy with roadtrips lately,nakzzz!
And i thought I can share some pics with the readers.
Here is one of the photo taken in a club called "NUMB3RS", it was cool. It was a bit crowded, but me and my girl, azel couldn't careless,haha.
ciao 4 now...
post up probably tomorrow,
cheerzzz!!!
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