..i admitt,i've d0ne s0 many mistakes in da past!,th0se mistakes have taught me h0w t0 be str0ng,t0 keep my feet on da gr0und....
..s0me pe0ple misjudge me!,i'm a party animal,c0nceited and all other shits!..yeah,maybe i've g0t attitude.guess w0t f0lks?!,every1s g0t one!!!..it juz s0 happens dat i sh0w da real me!,i d0n't hide and pretend t0 be sum1 else!..but,maybe..living a life as a happy pers0n despite my trials isn't okay 4 s0me!..i d0n't abuse myself!,i kn0w my limitati0ns..and i kn0w when i've had en0ugh!
..sad 2 kn0w,dat n0 matter h0w hard u try 2 be h0nest and as open as p0ssible..,still,critism is everywhere!,dey judge me like i ain't g0t n0 sense of resp0nsibility...
..s0 easy 2 say,i've g0t l0tsa dreams...but few believes in them!
..diz is redicul0us!
..well,w0t i hate da m0st is being SW0RN by s0me1 i th0ught i c0uld rely my trust,my em0ti0ns,everything!..but,an0ther less0n.,d0n't give ur trust fully!..NEWSFLASH!..at da end of da day,dey are da ones wh0 c0uld hurt u da m0st!
..i have just been sw0rn really hard 2nyt!.by da least pers0n i c0uld think of...., dat w0uld eva swear at me like hell!..but,end of st0ry,i d0n't wanna talk ab0ut him.in fact,i d0n't think i've g0t anything else t0 d0 wit him anym0re!
..i can't keep pe0ple like dat ar0und me!,wh0 c0uld just destr0y my wh0le being by thr0wing nasty w0rds at me,pulling me d0wn t0 da extent of having p0or self-esteem and manipulating me all da time with st0ries and lies 2 c0ver up!..f0r his own benefits!
..and he just d0n't have mercy 4me.
..d0n't mess up.
..n0 m0re t0 screw up! ^_-
To Lee,
From the moment I saw you, you caught my attention. I knew deep inside that it was really something special. And I gotta know what that feeling was....
You got me speechless when you first held my hand.
I thought of forever the first time we kissed under the rain....
And when you told me you love me for the very first time, it became the perfect moment in my life.
I never really realized that I have loved you from the very first time I laid my eyes on you...........^^,)
And I am so grateful we are still together since the day we met,
...................and will always be together.
From the roughest journey to the smoothest road we'll ever face and will ever be in in this relationship, for I can conquer the rocky roads as long as I am with you.
I LOVE YOU.
Sunday, August 31, 2008
hELLtirEd bUt fUn!
we arrived at durban later dat night!,was 11pm or s0,en we only slept at 1am afta havin' midnight snack!,damn!..dey w0ke me up 5:30am 2 walk on da beach..but it was really nice.....
Sunrise,gr0up of friends.....any cute guys??L0L.naaaah,i wasn't afta dat juz yet!,LMFA0.
we had a braai/BBQ party at da garden wit 2 white men. all i did was ate!,i c0uldn't st0p myself..!,en i cant st0p gaining weight as well!,hahahaha.KIDDING!..xx all i kn0w,im still alright!..xx b0ozes were everywhere!,drank redwhine,ciders..,jack daniels wit lime as tequila sh0ts!..s0 on en s0 on...
..afta da bbq party,we hit da WALA-WALA BAR!,yeah..en s0 literally der was N0THING special dat side!,hahaha. Juz drank springb0k sh0oters and an energy b0oster drink!,FLIP!i was s0 exhausted!
..driving ar0und da city den we dressed up again f0r CLUBBING dat night!,en yeah,we hit THE PANAMA R0OM. Twaz packed en happening!!! Da street were occupied by cars,en s0 our car were packed on the other side of da street..dat we had t0 walk juz 2 get in da club!,s0me party animal..wh0o0oeeww!,but it was all w0rth it! *d0n't even menti0ning dat i was wearing high-heels!*
s0 it was me,fred,sheryl en fr0ilan wh0 went in PANAMA.it was a l0unge disc0 club,VIPs,en a f0rmal attire 2 get in. Yeah,sheryl was da c0nnected one. She knew da owner dat we g0t der f0r free. En take n0te,da b0uncer assisted us t0 get inside thr0ugh da VIP entrance! Hmmm..n0w!..datz da p0wer of c0nnecti0ns baby!..hehe.
it was s0 packed!,l0tsa h0t chikkas en ofcurz l0tsa cute guys,t0o!,wahahaha;) but i had fun..really!!! At 1st,juz sittin' chillin' in da l0unge,sh0ts of tequillas 2 get started, st0rms en redsquare!..alth0ugh,still a bit drunk fr0m early dat aftern0on,rememba?..en talk ab0ut with N0 SLEEP!,but..hey?it was da SHIT!
afta a c0uple of drinks,we hit da dancefl0or..,drank again,vip l0unge balc0ny....ladies r0om???wahahaha. I kept on f0rcing myself t0 v0mmit...TWICE!,by placing my finger d0wn my thr0at!..i wanted 2 remain s0ber da wh0le night!,i'd s0ber up,drink again..s0ber up,dance..en s0 on. Fred en fr0ilan juz gave us m0ney en dey juz waited in da car. Hmmm,dey c0uldn't keep up wit me en sheryl,hahaha!..N0 REST,N0 SLEEP!..N0 TIRING OF PARTTTYYYIIIIIINNNNNNGGG!
..we didnt n0tice dat it was 6am already!..dat FRED had t0 c0me en fetched us inside da club!,hahaha.damn!..n0 sleepin',7am,we hit da beach..juz g0t in my sh0rts en white spaghetti t0p,en my r0xy cap...i played wit da water.,thr0win'sand with each other....en da rest of da gang were like,"WTF!..N0 REST YET STILL ENERGETIC!"..haha.
dey didn't even give me a chance 2 sleep juz yet,afta da beach!..i juz t0ok a sh0wer,dressed up...en went t0 USHAKA MARINE W0RLD. Well, s0 much things happened and space w0nt be en0ugh 2 write dem here. Twaz weird dat we met filipin0es der..but,ai..i'm a friendly pers0n even at 1st meeting,but ai...i didnt even say hi 2 dem.dunn0 why!..dey were all talking,but 4me,da vibe wasn't der!
as we g0t h0me,y0h!..i went STRAIGHT on da bed,kn0cked out!
i juz finished eating dinner n0w..en,i tink dey've g0t plans of g0ing t0 da filipin0 bar th0se pin0y menti0ned earlier...called,MANILA BAY!
..but i am still tired dat i wanna sleep again!,W0TEVA.if i w0uldn't be able t0 make it 2nyt..itz ok!,my weekend was an endless party already!..
s0...
Sunrise,gr0up of friends.....any cute guys??L0L.naaaah,i wasn't afta dat juz yet!,LMFA0.
we had a braai/BBQ party at da garden wit 2 white men. all i did was ate!,i c0uldn't st0p myself..!,en i cant st0p gaining weight as well!,hahahaha.KIDDING!..xx all i kn0w,im still alright!..xx b0ozes were everywhere!,drank redwhine,ciders..,jack daniels wit lime as tequila sh0ts!..s0 on en s0 on...
..afta da bbq party,we hit da WALA-WALA BAR!,yeah..en s0 literally der was N0THING special dat side!,hahaha. Juz drank springb0k sh0oters and an energy b0oster drink!,FLIP!i was s0 exhausted!
..driving ar0und da city den we dressed up again f0r CLUBBING dat night!,en yeah,we hit THE PANAMA R0OM. Twaz packed en happening!!! Da street were occupied by cars,en s0 our car were packed on the other side of da street..dat we had t0 walk juz 2 get in da club!,s0me party animal..wh0o0oeeww!,but it was all w0rth it! *d0n't even menti0ning dat i was wearing high-heels!*
s0 it was me,fred,sheryl en fr0ilan wh0 went in PANAMA.it was a l0unge disc0 club,VIPs,en a f0rmal attire 2 get in. Yeah,sheryl was da c0nnected one. She knew da owner dat we g0t der f0r free. En take n0te,da b0uncer assisted us t0 get inside thr0ugh da VIP entrance! Hmmm..n0w!..datz da p0wer of c0nnecti0ns baby!..hehe.
it was s0 packed!,l0tsa h0t chikkas en ofcurz l0tsa cute guys,t0o!,wahahaha;) but i had fun..really!!! At 1st,juz sittin' chillin' in da l0unge,sh0ts of tequillas 2 get started, st0rms en redsquare!..alth0ugh,still a bit drunk fr0m early dat aftern0on,rememba?..en talk ab0ut with N0 SLEEP!,but..hey?it was da SHIT!
afta a c0uple of drinks,we hit da dancefl0or..,drank again,vip l0unge balc0ny....ladies r0om???wahahaha. I kept on f0rcing myself t0 v0mmit...TWICE!,by placing my finger d0wn my thr0at!..i wanted 2 remain s0ber da wh0le night!,i'd s0ber up,drink again..s0ber up,dance..en s0 on. Fred en fr0ilan juz gave us m0ney en dey juz waited in da car. Hmmm,dey c0uldn't keep up wit me en sheryl,hahaha!..N0 REST,N0 SLEEP!..N0 TIRING OF PARTTTYYYIIIIIINNNNNNGGG!
..we didnt n0tice dat it was 6am already!..dat FRED had t0 c0me en fetched us inside da club!,hahaha.damn!..n0 sleepin',7am,we hit da beach..juz g0t in my sh0rts en white spaghetti t0p,en my r0xy cap...i played wit da water.,thr0win'sand with each other....en da rest of da gang were like,"WTF!..N0 REST YET STILL ENERGETIC!"..haha.
dey didn't even give me a chance 2 sleep juz yet,afta da beach!..i juz t0ok a sh0wer,dressed up...en went t0 USHAKA MARINE W0RLD. Well, s0 much things happened and space w0nt be en0ugh 2 write dem here. Twaz weird dat we met filipin0es der..but,ai..i'm a friendly pers0n even at 1st meeting,but ai...i didnt even say hi 2 dem.dunn0 why!..dey were all talking,but 4me,da vibe wasn't der!
as we g0t h0me,y0h!..i went STRAIGHT on da bed,kn0cked out!
i juz finished eating dinner n0w..en,i tink dey've g0t plans of g0ing t0 da filipin0 bar th0se pin0y menti0ned earlier...called,MANILA BAY!
..but i am still tired dat i wanna sleep again!,W0TEVA.if i w0uldn't be able t0 make it 2nyt..itz ok!,my weekend was an endless party already!..
s0...
Friday, August 29, 2008
r0adt3p!
..on da way 2 durban!,hmm..l0ngweekend it is!..WH000H0O0O!!!,l0ngh0urs of driving th0ugh!..we're r0llin on da r0ad as writing diz!..im wearing black h0oded r0xy jacket,black r0xy cap..en i am drinking inside da car!,hahaha..!,listening t0 l0ud music..wit GANI,SHERYL,CHITO and ME!!,s0me other friends already left off 2 durban!,.its already dark,but hey!..itz friday!,datz da p0int..a night out!!!..xx alth0ugh i am badly missing s0me0ne right n0w,but unf0rtunately,he c0uldn't make it!..shame:(
..drinking wine on da r0ad,,but i d0nt tink it'd eva make me drunk!..i d0nt kn0w,but i just feel like,life is t0o sh0rt t0 mumble ab0ut my pr0bs!,even th0ugh i w0uld sit at h0me,it w0uldnt s0lve anything!..en having fun in y0ur life is PRICELESS!..easy man,,im juz 22!,da next thing i kn0w,,il be 25,26,30???wh0 kn0ws!!!..yeah,blah,blah,blah....all i kn0w,diz t3p is g0nna be OFF DA H0OK!!!..fishing,cruising...sand on da beach,sunset!,clubbing,barh0pping..meeting new pe0ple..en wh0 kn0ws what diz h0liday has in st0re 4us...i bet,its g0nna be a l0t of fun!
t0o bad,my sister c0uldn't c0me wit us.i tink she's g0nna thr0w out a h0use party!wh0 da hell kn0ws?but im sure she's g0nna be okay,.cuz sim0ne is als0 g0nna be there!!!..xx
s0,yeah..i wish dat s0me0ne outder,,is actually enj0ying himself as well..!,its hard t0 tell,cuz we are s0 used 2b spending weekends t0gether!..xx
s0 g2g 4n0w,,ill enj0y da rest of diz j0urney...,da city lights,freeway!w0teva..damn!!,THANK G0D ITS FRIDAY!;)
xx..CIA0!..xx
..drinking wine on da r0ad,,but i d0nt tink it'd eva make me drunk!..i d0nt kn0w,but i just feel like,life is t0o sh0rt t0 mumble ab0ut my pr0bs!,even th0ugh i w0uld sit at h0me,it w0uldnt s0lve anything!..en having fun in y0ur life is PRICELESS!..easy man,,im juz 22!,da next thing i kn0w,,il be 25,26,30???wh0 kn0ws!!!..yeah,blah,blah,blah....all i kn0w,diz t3p is g0nna be OFF DA H0OK!!!..fishing,cruising...sand on da beach,sunset!,clubbing,barh0pping..meeting new pe0ple..en wh0 kn0ws what diz h0liday has in st0re 4us...i bet,its g0nna be a l0t of fun!
t0o bad,my sister c0uldn't c0me wit us.i tink she's g0nna thr0w out a h0use party!wh0 da hell kn0ws?but im sure she's g0nna be okay,.cuz sim0ne is als0 g0nna be there!!!..xx
s0,yeah..i wish dat s0me0ne outder,,is actually enj0ying himself as well..!,its hard t0 tell,cuz we are s0 used 2b spending weekends t0gether!..xx
s0 g2g 4n0w,,ill enj0y da rest of diz j0urney...,da city lights,freeway!w0teva..damn!!,THANK G0D ITS FRIDAY!;)
xx..CIA0!..xx
piSsed off drunk!
wh0o0o!..w0t can i say?..it was a parrrttttyyyy on a thursday!,went t0 FRANKIS & BANANAS C0CKTAIL BAR...had l0ts of MALIBU en appletiser!,was wit SHERYL,SHYNE,JAYS0N,DERAN...aNd me,oFCurz!..xx
went t0 melville afterwardz!,it was packed..everybar were full!,,went t0 TRANCEKEI,and da music was heavymetal,en s0,we went t0 chill t0 SIX!,it was ac2ually nice.i had headache,but den,haha..fuck dat off!,,i had c0cktails,jaggerb0mb,redsquare and l0ts of tequilas!!!..xx
it was fun!,and im g0ing 2 durban 2m0ro...an0da 3days straight party!!!..xx
my baby juz let g0 2nyt...kei,datz w0t he wanted. S0 be it!
went t0 melville afterwardz!,it was packed..everybar were full!,,went t0 TRANCEKEI,and da music was heavymetal,en s0,we went t0 chill t0 SIX!,it was ac2ually nice.i had headache,but den,haha..fuck dat off!,,i had c0cktails,jaggerb0mb,redsquare and l0ts of tequilas!!!..xx
it was fun!,and im g0ing 2 durban 2m0ro...an0da 3days straight party!!!..xx
my baby juz let g0 2nyt...kei,datz w0t he wanted. S0 be it!
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
l0ts of invites...
takin' a cancerstick,listening 2 kak music at da m0ment...itz been quite a l0ng day!..g0tta finish up wit my laundries still,,and g0t l0tsa ph0ne calls!..hayy,,s0meh0w im missin' s0me0ne ryt n0w.. Diz oda guy.. A fling?n0t really..cuz my feelings 4him weren't juz dat. But,n0 c0mmitment inv0lved! G0od th0ugh,cuz i dun wanna hurt myself anym0re. But,itz kinda hard...
We were in a fight,and i decided 2 break it th0ugh!,cuz dat kinda relati0nship will get n0where...
Deran called. He invited me 2 chill wit his friends at FRANKEE EN BANANAS 2m0r0! S0unds g0od!,my s0cial life is pretty c0min' alive again.. Brian called up and wanted 2 meet up b4 i g0 2 DURBS on friday!..shit,i alm0st 4g0t, Dellas is als0 inviting me as well 2 his birthday bash on friday! Well,what tah do n0t 2 disapp0int him? I've g0t other plans n0w.. Well,we'll get t0 dat later!..xx
Seems like every0ne can't get ova wit w0t happened last saturday!HAHA. I puked while we were playing da "drinking game"!, i had n0t much 2 drink,but i threw up!..and gez w0t?..i puked next wit diz oda guy!..LMA0. Dat was s0 embarrasing!,but ai... It was s0 funny later on!.. Imagine,i v0mmit on his pants!LOL. CrazZzY mE,huh??!
I d0n't really feel like washing my cl0thes 2nyt,but i have t0. Or elz,i will have n0thing 2 wear on friday 4da l0ng weekend!..or,i c0uld sh0w up NAKED!..KIDDING;p
itz g0nna be a l0ngdrive again,and itz g0nna be fun..!t0o bad,i aint g0nna be wit special s0me0ne!..juz wit fwenz!,SINGLE LIFE IT IS!!!haha.
n0 ones ar0und,except my sista..hayyy,itz kinda hard wen u have 2b by urself!,i juz need 2b financially independent..and i'm all sharp!..en livin' independently is n0t always fun!..except FREED0M!..hahahaha!..datz da advantage of it,i guess!,and learning 2 stand up n0 matter w0t wen u fall..!be m0tivated all da tym,and learning 2b t0ugh!..w0t can i say?..I L0VE CHALLENGES!..xx
i'm kinda sleepy n0w.but,i need 2 get d0ne wit my tasks! Laundry,laundry,laundry...and m0o0ore laundry!..hayyy! Well,w0t 2 c0mplain? Juz put in da dirty cl0thes inside da damn washing machine..and take a nap 4a while!LOL.
i w0nda h0w da party is g0nna turn out 2m0r0!..HELL0 FABUL0US!!!;)
i miss y0u babe:(
but i need t0 let g0..... :'(
i believe i g0tta make da right ch0ices,other than getting hurt...s0rry.
We were in a fight,and i decided 2 break it th0ugh!,cuz dat kinda relati0nship will get n0where...
Deran called. He invited me 2 chill wit his friends at FRANKEE EN BANANAS 2m0r0! S0unds g0od!,my s0cial life is pretty c0min' alive again.. Brian called up and wanted 2 meet up b4 i g0 2 DURBS on friday!..shit,i alm0st 4g0t, Dellas is als0 inviting me as well 2 his birthday bash on friday! Well,what tah do n0t 2 disapp0int him? I've g0t other plans n0w.. Well,we'll get t0 dat later!..xx
Seems like every0ne can't get ova wit w0t happened last saturday!HAHA. I puked while we were playing da "drinking game"!, i had n0t much 2 drink,but i threw up!..and gez w0t?..i puked next wit diz oda guy!..LMA0. Dat was s0 embarrasing!,but ai... It was s0 funny later on!.. Imagine,i v0mmit on his pants!LOL. CrazZzY mE,huh??!
I d0n't really feel like washing my cl0thes 2nyt,but i have t0. Or elz,i will have n0thing 2 wear on friday 4da l0ng weekend!..or,i c0uld sh0w up NAKED!..KIDDING;p
itz g0nna be a l0ngdrive again,and itz g0nna be fun..!t0o bad,i aint g0nna be wit special s0me0ne!..juz wit fwenz!,SINGLE LIFE IT IS!!!haha.
n0 ones ar0und,except my sista..hayyy,itz kinda hard wen u have 2b by urself!,i juz need 2b financially independent..and i'm all sharp!..en livin' independently is n0t always fun!..except FREED0M!..hahahaha!..datz da advantage of it,i guess!,and learning 2 stand up n0 matter w0t wen u fall..!be m0tivated all da tym,and learning 2b t0ugh!..w0t can i say?..I L0VE CHALLENGES!..xx
i'm kinda sleepy n0w.but,i need 2 get d0ne wit my tasks! Laundry,laundry,laundry...and m0o0ore laundry!..hayyy! Well,w0t 2 c0mplain? Juz put in da dirty cl0thes inside da damn washing machine..and take a nap 4a while!LOL.
i w0nda h0w da party is g0nna turn out 2m0r0!..HELL0 FABUL0US!!!;)
i miss y0u babe:(
but i need t0 let g0..... :'(
i believe i g0tta make da right ch0ices,other than getting hurt...s0rry.
Monday, August 18, 2008
cAncErstiCk:p
'juz here all day at h0me. I've g0t a 4day seminar starting tom0rr0w. I am just so excited. Yet, I d0n't kn0w what t0 expect. An opportunity that is waiting right there to be grabbed.
Sitting here on the couch and i am craving for a 'cancerstick',LOL. If you are a real c0nsumer,believe me..one day is like f0rever!xx
It's my bestfriend's birthday t0m0rr0w. Awww, I miss her s0 much. We kinda grew up t0gether. But, ai.. We have t0 g0 separate ways!
A so-called "friend" ph0ned just n0w. For a minute, I was singing as he was playing HILARY DUFF's tracks! But, he began playing with the s0ngs and it kinda irritated me! Eish! Anyways, wh0 cares? He's irritating me,BIG TIME,these past few days! He w0uld call me or I w0uld call him 3am or s0, everyday and it w0uld always end up with a fight! I just feel like unspecial because he's g0t other pri0rities than me. Well,guess what?You d0n't play that game with me,because y0u're starting t0 ann0y me!
Anyh0w,s0..the dinner is c0oked.yet,n0b0dy's in the dining..except me. My sister is busy chatting again. Asusual!;p
cancerstick:'( i'm cravin' 4ya!..xx
Sitting here on the couch and i am craving for a 'cancerstick',LOL. If you are a real c0nsumer,believe me..one day is like f0rever!xx
It's my bestfriend's birthday t0m0rr0w. Awww, I miss her s0 much. We kinda grew up t0gether. But, ai.. We have t0 g0 separate ways!
A so-called "friend" ph0ned just n0w. For a minute, I was singing as he was playing HILARY DUFF's tracks! But, he began playing with the s0ngs and it kinda irritated me! Eish! Anyways, wh0 cares? He's irritating me,BIG TIME,these past few days! He w0uld call me or I w0uld call him 3am or s0, everyday and it w0uld always end up with a fight! I just feel like unspecial because he's g0t other pri0rities than me. Well,guess what?You d0n't play that game with me,because y0u're starting t0 ann0y me!
Anyh0w,s0..the dinner is c0oked.yet,n0b0dy's in the dining..except me. My sister is busy chatting again. Asusual!;p
cancerstick:'( i'm cravin' 4ya!..xx
Saturday, August 16, 2008
...wOw!,my 1st bLoG iN dA bLoGsPot!..niCe!!!;)hmMm..hOw dO i stArt?,wELL,,fiRst oF,iF u arE a bLoGgEr likE mE,i fEatUrE mOst oF mY evErydAy liviNg aNd thOuGhtS!..thiS iS hOw i exPrEsS my fEELiNgS!;p my oNLiNe diAry!..xx sOmE miGht nOt uNdErStAnd,bUt,hEy!..i aiNt gOt nOthiN' tAh hiDe!.,jUz cOmE aLoNg wiT my jOurnEy;)1stLy,jUz likE aNybOdy eLsE i gUeSs??,liFe cAn bE crUel sUmtYmz!..bUt uHhh,oOpZ!,let mE tAkE it diZ waY..LiFe cAn bE sO chALLeNgiN' dAt iT dOeSn'T aLwAyS gO oN yOur wAy!..dA kEywOrDs??..'STRIVE HARDER!'..xxwELL,sOmE pEopLe sAy dAt...U CAN SUCCEED IF U WOULD JUST BELIEVE!..(amEn!),wEL,lifE cAn bE sO tOugH,,bUt i bELiEvE dAt i wiL sUcCeEd!:)eN sO...i hAvE chOsEn tO livE mY liFe iN a hUgE ciTy witHoUt my fAMiLy bUt my siStEr.i bELiEvE dAt iT is a hUgE opPortUniTy fOr mE. dA hArdwOrk mAy nOt bE pAid oUt imMediAtELy,bUt i gOtTa bE pAtiEnt..i wiLL gEt dEr;)wELL,,itZ aLmOst 6am nOw..eN i aiNt sLeEpiN' jUz yEt!..xxtOdAy iS a nEw dAy:) chEck oUt wOtz gOnNa bE piMpiN' 2dAy!..aS iL bE writiN' hErE latEr wOtz bEeN uP wiT mE 2dAy!..xx bUt..CIAO F0R NOW! ñ_ñ
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