...it's been quite a while since i have posted up som blogs. Oh well, what have I been up to??? Nothing much. Oh well, A LOT!.. just to be honest, damn! uh-oh lotsa troubles as well. Like my sister's issue over friends, betrayal and some financial issues. And this other guy that has been spying on me. And in the end, he made me look like i made him do that!. DURH? Who doesn't want privacy? He must really like me, but that just aint the way to get my attention... MY GOSH!



Anyhow, been watching lotsa movies lately. And watching my new fave series, PROJECT RUNWAY!.. like I have watched all their flippin seasons. Except Season 1. :(








But my fave of them all is Christian of Season 4.....SO FIERCE!!!!..lol.

:)) 3 days to go, it's Christmas! And before I even know it, its 2010... w0w! so0o0o0o looking forward to it. And i just know that 2010 is gonna be MY year!


I have come to realize that I don't need a relationship right now. I hope my Christmas would be fun, and hell yeah it will be!:)


NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS LIST:

1. Quit smoking. - and with that, minimizing doesnt count. I meant QUIT!
2. NO BOYFRIEND!- it wouldn't be that hard, come on!
3. Get my Learners License. - whew! that?? I really need to work on.
4. Get back in shape;p - even if that means eating greens and some serious dvd's and joggings early mornings! Goodluck to me! :)
5. Buy myself a new guitar - Geez, I seriously need one.
6. Start to communicate with my family in the Philippines. - whoaw, since when did I last spoke to them? like seriously now, that was 2 years ago :(
7. Budget my allowance/salary in much effective form of budgeting. - and it requires a lot of discipline and saying NO to gorgeous dresses in the mall! Wish me luck!
8. Pay less and Save more. - yeah, better save lotz and say NO to lots.
9. Study harder. - even if it means studying late at night after work... gotta work on it!
10. Minimize the parties and friends visit. - and that is the real challenge here!!!!!:'(

this journey continues. . .

All through these years, I have learnt so many things in my life that I have been applying to myself and regarding my own decision-makings. I can't say that I have been much of an expert in life because I still make mistakes. . .but I keep on standing despite my falls, and I still continue despite heartaches. Each year, there are so many things I keep on learning. And this year, I have feared to love again. I have been much focus on fixing broken relationships and it has broken me. . .not just apart, but into broken pieces.


Its the 1st of December, just another 30 days and another year to conquer. I have moved in the city of Pretoria and I still don't know what future has in store for me. I just know, it is the new beginning of great and best memories. Some more lessons to learn in life, and I just know, i have found my peace and happiness in life. I am not just moving on, but I want to move forward. I am so glad I have been given another chance in life again. I have a chance of appreciating people who have always been there for me but I often took for granted. I cannot wait to start.

I have been so sidetracked with love, love, love! That love gives someone happiness. But happiness is not only found in LOVE, and love doesn't have to mean feelings for the opposite sex. There is so much more to life than being attached to someone physically and emotionally, but it could also be a love for "something", not just by "someone". I am starting to love myself again with whole of me and everything good always follows.

I have been given another opportunity. And there is no such thing as broken dreams because you can always build up your dreams. And I am fulfilling mine. That for some reason I didn't know why those things in the past happened. Cried my heart out and blame myself as if it was all my fault. But everything happens for a reason, those things happened because I am meant to be where I am at right now, and the journey still continues.



This is my last post of sad stories because happiness just opened up once again that I thought I have found from my previous relationship. But I have found them once again, by loving myself. Have I forgotten the past? NO! But time will come, I will. In time. It might hurt me to think he has forgotten about me. But in time, just in time. . . And I just let the time heal all wounds.




This is just another beginning. Another beginning of everything good that will flow into my life:)