itz been quite a while since i have p0sted up a bl0g in here. w0rk was quite a heavyload lately until i g0t sick.
i went out yesterday with an old "friend", with my m0m.. en with my c0usin en her family...wh0 ive never seen 4 such a l0ng time. went t0 NELS0N MANDELA SQUARE en had an iced-c0ffee «despite my c0nditi0n,sp0iling my flu,löl..» with a friend...then later on meet up with my m0m en c0usins..[ate rhelen en family] t0 eat in REV0NIA SQUARE at chinese restaurant. went t0 M0NTECASINO afterwards en had one c0cktail..(i keep on c0ming f0r their PINA C0LADA 4a reas0n..) while discussing s0me private matters with a friend.. past,present en da future,lma0.
saw an ELEMENT jacket [which i was ac2ualy on a tight budget at dat p0int],but still b0ught it 4 ritchie as a surprised..[en a p0sitive opini0n fr0m sum1 t0o ofcurz..] den b0ught 2 b0okz. "NICE GIRLS D0NT GET RICH" en da oda one g0t snatched by a friend.."law of attracti0n".j0kes.
it was quite a l0ng day 4 a sick-chick like me..löl.
,literally sick!:p
To Lee,
From the moment I saw you, you caught my attention. I knew deep inside that it was really something special. And I gotta know what that feeling was....
You got me speechless when you first held my hand.
I thought of forever the first time we kissed under the rain....
And when you told me you love me for the very first time, it became the perfect moment in my life.
I never really realized that I have loved you from the very first time I laid my eyes on you...........^^,)
And I am so grateful we are still together since the day we met,
...................and will always be together.
From the roughest journey to the smoothest road we'll ever face and will ever be in in this relationship, for I can conquer the rocky roads as long as I am with you.
I LOVE YOU.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
..loaded-mind.
juz in da r0om,.listenin'2 INNOCENCE by avril. i haven't eaten anyting 4 dinner yet. watched 5m0vies in a r0w en n0w,time t0 juz kinda chillax- cuz my head is pretty l0aded at da m0ment..
my sis dr0pped by da hauz,headin' t0 meet s0me friends..,en me?!,i d0n't feel like g0in anywer on a friday night. i d0n't kn0w...
i'm just kinda n0t up 4 anything 2nyt.
i've g0t l0tsa things in my head right n0w. i juz dunn0 w0t2do. im kinda stuck en can't make up my mind...
me en ritch had a talk last night.i dunn0 wether i'm g0in 2 bloemf0ntein or n0t.i dun wana be selfish wit my decisi0ns.i d0n't wana be leavin' my b0yfriend ova sum benefits i'd get if i ch0ose 2 stay wit my family...
life must be pretty hard in the city especially itz juz me en my sister...but,i dunn0. i'm kinda thinkin' if i will leave,then me en ritch wud be s0 far away 4rm each oda..
isn't relati0nship supp0sed 2b f0r g0od times en bad times?-s0,i wanna stay wit him th0 itz hard 2 study en w0rk at da same time..
hayy,
am i makin it hard 4 myself?
my sis dr0pped by da hauz,headin' t0 meet s0me friends..,en me?!,i d0n't feel like g0in anywer on a friday night. i d0n't kn0w...
i'm just kinda n0t up 4 anything 2nyt.
i've g0t l0tsa things in my head right n0w. i juz dunn0 w0t2do. im kinda stuck en can't make up my mind...
me en ritch had a talk last night.i dunn0 wether i'm g0in 2 bloemf0ntein or n0t.i dun wana be selfish wit my decisi0ns.i d0n't wana be leavin' my b0yfriend ova sum benefits i'd get if i ch0ose 2 stay wit my family...
life must be pretty hard in the city especially itz juz me en my sister...but,i dunn0. i'm kinda thinkin' if i will leave,then me en ritch wud be s0 far away 4rm each oda..
isn't relati0nship supp0sed 2b f0r g0od times en bad times?-s0,i wanna stay wit him th0 itz hard 2 study en w0rk at da same time..
hayy,
am i makin it hard 4 myself?
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
FRIENDLY OR UNFAITHFUL? (III)
..and what ab0ut using y0ur heart t0o?
i mean, this man has g0t family already. i am n0t telling ab0ut using his heart wit his ex-girlfriend. i am telling ab0ut his wife. the wife d0esn't kn0w that that was his ex either. it's heartbreaking that he might be al0ne? but i'd rather be al0ne f0r a while than be f0oled.
i maybe n0t a perfect girlfriend,but i am trying. instead of l0okin' out s0mewhere else that can fill up the missing part of being cl0se t0 perfect, i am trying t0 fill it up myself s0 it can be perfect...
i d0n't kn0w..
maybe he's just being friendly...
but,.i just th0ught its unfair..
-i w0nder if his wife knew that's his ex...
...cuz its quite imp0ssible t0 see that his wife all0wed them t0 c0mmunicate openly like that.
trust is imp0rtant,i kn0w that.. but s0metimes, the other one cann0t be trusted.. it aint en0ugh!.. trust is imp0rtant in any relati0nship- and definitely w0rth the trust,if there is h0nesty.....
i mean, this man has g0t family already. i am n0t telling ab0ut using his heart wit his ex-girlfriend. i am telling ab0ut his wife. the wife d0esn't kn0w that that was his ex either. it's heartbreaking that he might be al0ne? but i'd rather be al0ne f0r a while than be f0oled.
i maybe n0t a perfect girlfriend,but i am trying. instead of l0okin' out s0mewhere else that can fill up the missing part of being cl0se t0 perfect, i am trying t0 fill it up myself s0 it can be perfect...
i d0n't kn0w..
maybe he's just being friendly...
but,.i just th0ught its unfair..
-i w0nder if his wife knew that's his ex...
...cuz its quite imp0ssible t0 see that his wife all0wed them t0 c0mmunicate openly like that.
trust is imp0rtant,i kn0w that.. but s0metimes, the other one cann0t be trusted.. it aint en0ugh!.. trust is imp0rtant in any relati0nship- and definitely w0rth the trust,if there is h0nesty.....
FRIENDLY OR UNFAITHFUL? (II)
"oh sure, that's just an ex-girlfriend and i d0n't wanna thr0w away what we've been thr0ugh bef0re", a typical excuse of men when y0u caught them c0mmunicating with their ex-es! well, y0u kn0w what, i'm s0meb0dy else's ex t0o... en h0w i wish at least we didn't ruin our friendship out of that relati0nship. he c0uld've at least say HI t0 me once and a while. but, that taught me s0mething. 1stly, when pe0ple break up,.it means "separating paths" that's why it's called break up in the 1st place. 2ndly, if the s0-called "ex" f0und his\her new life?-let it g0! cuz we'll never kn0w if we are giving a hardtime on his\her current relati0nship. and 3rdly, be c0ntented of w0t u've g0t.. (well,i kn0w i am m0re than c0ntented wit w0t i've g0t.) all i'm saying is, i kn0w it might n0t be 100% or cl0se t0 perfect but,n0 1 is perfect en n0thing is perfect. but we'v g0t our head 2 use as well. sumtimes,it's a matter of "mind-set capability". if we tell ourselves we are satisfied,the b0dy c0rresp0nds like we ac2ualy l0vin it:)
FRIENDLY OR UNFAITHFUL? (I)
i d0nt kn0w what t0 say and where t0 start...
i have this friend wh0's g0t a wife and kids in the Philippines. he is very friendly, th0ughtful and ofc0urse, d0esn't l0ok like ALM0ST 40 or s0mething. he is actually hyperactive and y0u can never tell the age.
being far away fr0m h0me is definitely a sad st0ry. that's a st0ry of an OFW. y0u w0uld wanna g0 h0me t0 y0ur family instead of cusi0n bed which is empty. (lucky f0r me,my family settled here a l0ng time ag0).
he w0uld g0 out there and play sp0rts or h0bby if he wanna call it that way. it might be thrilling but when he g0es h0me,.f0r sure he's al0ne again. luckily, we are in generati0n of high-techn0logy. there's email, webcam t0 c0nnect wit family and d0nt 4get friendster t0 c0nnect with old friends..,new friends,ex-girlfriends??!
oh well,i d0n't like criticizing other pe0ple. just like i've said, we'll never kn0w why one did what he did.. s0 we cann0t judge like that. i hate judging other pe0ple because everyone's g0t their own flaws...
i have this friend wh0's g0t a wife and kids in the Philippines. he is very friendly, th0ughtful and ofc0urse, d0esn't l0ok like ALM0ST 40 or s0mething. he is actually hyperactive and y0u can never tell the age.
being far away fr0m h0me is definitely a sad st0ry. that's a st0ry of an OFW. y0u w0uld wanna g0 h0me t0 y0ur family instead of cusi0n bed which is empty. (lucky f0r me,my family settled here a l0ng time ag0).
he w0uld g0 out there and play sp0rts or h0bby if he wanna call it that way. it might be thrilling but when he g0es h0me,.f0r sure he's al0ne again. luckily, we are in generati0n of high-techn0logy. there's email, webcam t0 c0nnect wit family and d0nt 4get friendster t0 c0nnect with old friends..,new friends,ex-girlfriends??!
oh well,i d0n't like criticizing other pe0ple. just like i've said, we'll never kn0w why one did what he did.. s0 we cann0t judge like that. i hate judging other pe0ple because everyone's g0t their own flaws...
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
...a sad t0 happy st0ry. (III)
being a newkid at sch0ol was better than g0ing h0me. i c0uld adapt t0 the sch0ol's envir0nment easily than adapt myself havin' a new family i th0ught was just me and my gran.
me and my m0m w0uld fight ab0ut anything and everything. even with the music i listen t0 and stuff. s0metimes, even my fav0rite c0l0ur. she w0uld want me t0 dress up girly..(oh, as a child, i used t0 dress up like a b0y...literally!),but i didn't want t0-we cudn't agree wit one thing.
but i guess, we just didn't kn0w each other that well. i hated my m0m.i felt like,she neva really underst0od me en blame da fact dat she left me at an early age dat's why she never knew much of w0t en wh0 i am,but thinkin thr0ugh,.she never knew me at dat p0int cuz i didn't reall giv her a chance 2b a m0ther t0 me..:(
but,i guess TIME heals all w0unds.everything happens 4a reas0n. we g0t 2 kn0 each other and b0nded even as cl0sefriends when a tragic ting happened. we hav learnt 2 help out each other.,up until this very p0int of my life..
like a m0m 2me:)
me and my m0m w0uld fight ab0ut anything and everything. even with the music i listen t0 and stuff. s0metimes, even my fav0rite c0l0ur. she w0uld want me t0 dress up girly..(oh, as a child, i used t0 dress up like a b0y...literally!),but i didn't want t0-we cudn't agree wit one thing.
but i guess, we just didn't kn0w each other that well. i hated my m0m.i felt like,she neva really underst0od me en blame da fact dat she left me at an early age dat's why she never knew much of w0t en wh0 i am,but thinkin thr0ugh,.she never knew me at dat p0int cuz i didn't reall giv her a chance 2b a m0ther t0 me..:(
but,i guess TIME heals all w0unds.everything happens 4a reas0n. we g0t 2 kn0 each other and b0nded even as cl0sefriends when a tragic ting happened. we hav learnt 2 help out each other.,up until this very p0int of my life..
like a m0m 2me:)
...a sad t0 happy st0ry. (II)
..my m0m left da c0untry. anyways, t0 make da st0ry sh0rt..,we w0uld just see each other during december at da maximum of 2weeks. (every other 3 years!!!..)
mathematically,.i only saw her twice-in-a-lifetime when i was still in the Philippines. (oh, and was just me en my granny in the h0use cuz my m0m br0ught my y0unger sister with at the age of 9.-i didn't wanna g0 with at that p0int because i seri0usly didnt want 2 leave my granny.-she was my life....up t0 n0w.)
until i finally decided t0 c0me here at age 15. i didn't want t0 leave but alth0ugh it br0ke my heart t0 leave my granny, i just figured that i didn't want t0 give her much tr0uble f0r taking g0od care of me at her old age.
the truth is, when i saw my m0m at the airp0rt.. i didn't kn0w h0w t0 react. w0uld i hug her? kiss her? perhaps tell st0ries? i d0n't kn0w. first-tw0-years of my stay was h0rrible cuz i was s0 h0mesick really badly. all i th0ught ab0ut was g0ing h0me. the only p0sitive thing i c0uld think ab0ut was i am wit my sister,its fine!
mathematically,.i only saw her twice-in-a-lifetime when i was still in the Philippines. (oh, and was just me en my granny in the h0use cuz my m0m br0ught my y0unger sister with at the age of 9.-i didn't wanna g0 with at that p0int because i seri0usly didnt want 2 leave my granny.-she was my life....up t0 n0w.)
until i finally decided t0 c0me here at age 15. i didn't want t0 leave but alth0ugh it br0ke my heart t0 leave my granny, i just figured that i didn't want t0 give her much tr0uble f0r taking g0od care of me at her old age.
the truth is, when i saw my m0m at the airp0rt.. i didn't kn0w h0w t0 react. w0uld i hug her? kiss her? perhaps tell st0ries? i d0n't kn0w. first-tw0-years of my stay was h0rrible cuz i was s0 h0mesick really badly. all i th0ught ab0ut was g0ing h0me. the only p0sitive thing i c0uld think ab0ut was i am wit my sister,its fine!
...a sad t0 happy st0ry. (I)
i can still remember when me and my m0m used t0 fight a l0t. like there were n0 minutes n0r sec0nds made f0r us,n0t ann0yed by each other.
i am n0t that bad daughter but, i kind of grew up with my grannyuntil my early teenage years that i had t0 leave my h0met0wn and study here.
tell me, h0w w0uld y0u expect me t0 be s0 attached with s0me0ne i only knew fr0m the picture until i finally stayed with her at age 15?
my m0m left me en my sister at age 6 after my dad passed away when i was 5. she t0 g0 overseas t0 pr0vide f0r our studies and ofc0urse f0r the future. (she was an RN backh0me and my dad was in a band playing in gigs f0r a living..)my dad g0t sick and my m0m was the only pr0vider. s0, i never really g0t a chance t0 see her that much during the day when she had duties at nightshift in the h0spital. it was my granny that eventually t0ok g0od care of me since my dad was sick en my m0m had t0 head off w0rk..
but dad passed away and i turned 6. i had t0 g0 t0 school and s0 my sister. it was a sad thing.
i am n0t that bad daughter but, i kind of grew up with my grannyuntil my early teenage years that i had t0 leave my h0met0wn and study here.
tell me, h0w w0uld y0u expect me t0 be s0 attached with s0me0ne i only knew fr0m the picture until i finally stayed with her at age 15?
my m0m left me en my sister at age 6 after my dad passed away when i was 5. she t0 g0 overseas t0 pr0vide f0r our studies and ofc0urse f0r the future. (she was an RN backh0me and my dad was in a band playing in gigs f0r a living..)my dad g0t sick and my m0m was the only pr0vider. s0, i never really g0t a chance t0 see her that much during the day when she had duties at nightshift in the h0spital. it was my granny that eventually t0ok g0od care of me since my dad was sick en my m0m had t0 head off w0rk..
but dad passed away and i turned 6. i had t0 g0 t0 school and s0 my sister. it was a sad thing.
...trust.
..trust is one of the m0st imp0rtant ingredients in a relationship. without it, perhaps a relati0nship is always a mess. love alone cann0t w0rk it all out! wether it is family issue, business ass0ciates or neg0tiati0n pr0cess, friends matter,etc.with0ut trust, relationship cann0t build a g0od f0undati0n..but weakens it.
it feels g0od when y0u are befriending with sum1 u tink can be trusted, c0mmunicating with an organisation you trust, a family that trusts, a relati0nship that has mutual trust, or relying to a friend and can talk t0 ab0ut anything--because there is trust!
it is imp0rtant that cann0t be neglected by anyb0dy. trust is reliance, c0nfidence, c0mmunicati0n, patience, bravery, h0nesty, and all and all..
trust equals g0od relati0nship.
d0nt break them...
because once the f0undati0n is br0ken, it might be difficult t0 rest0re them back.. perhaps, never?
i guess,trust is s0 imp0rtant that it takes (maybe) m0nths?years? t0 build... yet takes at least one sec0nd t0 break.
s0,.d0n't..
it feels g0od when y0u are befriending with sum1 u tink can be trusted, c0mmunicating with an organisation you trust, a family that trusts, a relati0nship that has mutual trust, or relying to a friend and can talk t0 ab0ut anything--because there is trust!
it is imp0rtant that cann0t be neglected by anyb0dy. trust is reliance, c0nfidence, c0mmunicati0n, patience, bravery, h0nesty, and all and all..
trust equals g0od relati0nship.
d0nt break them...
because once the f0undati0n is br0ken, it might be difficult t0 rest0re them back.. perhaps, never?
i guess,trust is s0 imp0rtant that it takes (maybe) m0nths?years? t0 build... yet takes at least one sec0nd t0 break.
s0,.d0n't..
i d0nt get it...
i just d0nt feel s0 g0od t0day. my head is a bit messed up. i can't st0p thinkin' why s0me pe0ple can be s0 cruel. i d0nt kn0w.. i just d0nt live in pretendings or tryin' 2b nice with a pers0n,but behind their back? i w0uld stab their back??,i just cant. why am i still surprised?! hayyy..
h0w can s0meone be nice t0 other one when the other one hates the other one?..lol.but u kn0w w0t i mean..
i hate mean pe0ple.
it makes me wanna fight with them.
but i sh0uld kn0w better than that...
because bad m0uthing s0me0ne is a c0ward's language.
en if wh0ever tries pulling me d0wn means that i am already ahead..s0 why b0ther,right?
i am a type of pers0n that tries t0 imagine myself in s0me0ne else's sh0e,.or sh0uld i say emphatetic. en m0st of da time,i try 2 understand them. i w0uld ask myself questi0n like,if i were on his/her situati0n,.w0uld i d0 the same...yada-yada-yada!, but i guess y0u w0uld still enc0unter th0se kinda pe0ple that d0n't care ab0ut other pe0ple's feelings..
well,i gez,i shud juz ign0re them.
h0w can s0meone be nice t0 other one when the other one hates the other one?..lol.but u kn0w w0t i mean..
i hate mean pe0ple.
it makes me wanna fight with them.
but i sh0uld kn0w better than that...
because bad m0uthing s0me0ne is a c0ward's language.
en if wh0ever tries pulling me d0wn means that i am already ahead..s0 why b0ther,right?
i am a type of pers0n that tries t0 imagine myself in s0me0ne else's sh0e,.or sh0uld i say emphatetic. en m0st of da time,i try 2 understand them. i w0uld ask myself questi0n like,if i were on his/her situati0n,.w0uld i d0 the same...yada-yada-yada!, but i guess y0u w0uld still enc0unter th0se kinda pe0ple that d0n't care ab0ut other pe0ple's feelings..
well,i gez,i shud juz ign0re them.
Monday, March 16, 2009
...hey:D
i've seen da number of visits in my page,and just wanna say thank u 4 readin' my online j0urnal...
i am just an h0nest pers0n wh0 d0esn't want living in secrecy...
s0,if u were really intrigued of w0t u heard ab0ut me (f0r th0se peepz wh0 kn0w me,ofc0urse..) just h0ller'at me!;p
as of n0w,.i d0nt kn0w..
i had this friend in friendster wh0's s0 obvi0us dat he/she just wanna check me out.
oh well,dat isnt da wh0le st0ry...
if u were really f0llowin me,until this site...?
thank y0u...
y0u see,i am n0t a kinda pers0n u tink i may seem..
i am a l0t better than u th0ught!
just get a life,.cuz u have one t0 w0rk on!, and that is n0t by hating me!,or spying..whatever u wana call it..
i trusted u,but i just d0nt think i still trust u in da same way. it was an h0nest-mistake t0 think y0u c0uld be a friend.. but,there are s0 many things i f0und out ab0ut ur pers0nality that sh0uldnt be. i d0nt like friends who like "bad m0uthing" s0 much.. its..(d0nt wana say it)
i was true 2u as a friend.,il juz ask u 2 stay away..
i am just an h0nest pers0n wh0 d0esn't want living in secrecy...
s0,if u were really intrigued of w0t u heard ab0ut me (f0r th0se peepz wh0 kn0w me,ofc0urse..) just h0ller'at me!;p
as of n0w,.i d0nt kn0w..
i had this friend in friendster wh0's s0 obvi0us dat he/she just wanna check me out.
oh well,dat isnt da wh0le st0ry...
if u were really f0llowin me,until this site...?
thank y0u...
y0u see,i am n0t a kinda pers0n u tink i may seem..
i am a l0t better than u th0ught!
just get a life,.cuz u have one t0 w0rk on!, and that is n0t by hating me!,or spying..whatever u wana call it..
i trusted u,but i just d0nt think i still trust u in da same way. it was an h0nest-mistake t0 think y0u c0uld be a friend.. but,there are s0 many things i f0und out ab0ut ur pers0nality that sh0uldnt be. i d0nt like friends who like "bad m0uthing" s0 much.. its..(d0nt wana say it)
i was true 2u as a friend.,il juz ask u 2 stay away..
Friday, March 13, 2009
...itz been 18years:'(
itz been 18years...
alth0ugh i was just 5 years old at that p0int when he passed away..<1week afta my 5th bday..>,.i can still recall w0t it was like by my father's side....
its a sad thing n0t t0 gr0w up with one.there are times in my life that i c0uldn't run f0r help with my grandm0ther,but a father...
but i never had one.
oh,i had one..
but he g0tta leave.. :(
diz sh0rt p0em is 4my father...
en itz fr0m da b0tt0m of my heart--
**************
A FATHER
**************
..i can still remember the times i had y0u
..me,my m0m and my sister t0o.
..we were happy like a real family,
..until a sad tragedy...
..there are times i w0uld wish y0u c0uld've stayed much l0nger,
..cuz i had s0me pr0blems that i needed a father.
..but the reality was painful that i had t0 get used t0 it
..hiding tears s0 n0 one c0uld see it..
..i wish we c0uld've had a fatherly talk...
..f0r y0u, i w0uld do anything even f0r a one day walk..
..h0w i wish we c0uld've played our music t0gether,.
..just like father and daughter:'(
alth0ugh i was just 5 years old at that p0int when he passed away..<1week afta my 5th bday..>,.i can still recall w0t it was like by my father's side....
its a sad thing n0t t0 gr0w up with one.there are times in my life that i c0uldn't run f0r help with my grandm0ther,but a father...
but i never had one.
oh,i had one..
but he g0tta leave.. :(
diz sh0rt p0em is 4my father...
en itz fr0m da b0tt0m of my heart--
**************
A FATHER
**************
..i can still remember the times i had y0u
..me,my m0m and my sister t0o.
..we were happy like a real family,
..until a sad tragedy...
..there are times i w0uld wish y0u c0uld've stayed much l0nger,
..cuz i had s0me pr0blems that i needed a father.
..but the reality was painful that i had t0 get used t0 it
..hiding tears s0 n0 one c0uld see it..
..i wish we c0uld've had a fatherly talk...
..f0r y0u, i w0uld do anything even f0r a one day walk..
..h0w i wish we c0uld've played our music t0gether,.
..just like father and daughter:'(
...just speakin'my mind out...
just at h0me da wh0le day,.listenin'2music en watchin dvd in da r0om.. lazy,er?LOL.only 4 n0w,just 2 keep my time occupied.especially il be damn busy again in da next few days...s0,.lying on my bed is pretty much of my scene right n0w,cuz i d0nt kn0w when diz kind of opp0rtunity will c0me again..haha!..
i aint g0t much anythin 2 share right n0w..hehe:D
oh,.d0n't u just hate it when s0meone's ac2ually claimin' they are MAFIAS,but d0nt even kn0w anything ab0ut it?-or namin' themselves hiph0ps but listens to punkr0ck?..i kn0w,i kn0w...n0t unless,dey like stuff which are c0mmercialized en pretty rand0m..dependin' up0n which one s0unds nice-thats understandable!..but labeling y0urself t0 be 2pac-follower or eminem or s0mething.but n0t kn0win sumting ab0ut it dat made u influenced?..datz g0tta be just c0pyin hueva 2 make u l0ok c0oler,ryt?..i dnt get it!
well,i kn0 sum1 4rm friendster,he ac2ually became my fwen hu only listens 2 metal hardc0re stuff..en stick 2 it!.n0t a hardc0re guy liZning 2 chris br0wn!
-g0t it?
i aint g0t much anythin 2 share right n0w..hehe:D
oh,.d0n't u just hate it when s0meone's ac2ually claimin' they are MAFIAS,but d0nt even kn0w anything ab0ut it?-or namin' themselves hiph0ps but listens to punkr0ck?..i kn0w,i kn0w...n0t unless,dey like stuff which are c0mmercialized en pretty rand0m..dependin' up0n which one s0unds nice-thats understandable!..but labeling y0urself t0 be 2pac-follower or eminem or s0mething.but n0t kn0win sumting ab0ut it dat made u influenced?..datz g0tta be just c0pyin hueva 2 make u l0ok c0oler,ryt?..i dnt get it!
well,i kn0 sum1 4rm friendster,he ac2ually became my fwen hu only listens 2 metal hardc0re stuff..en stick 2 it!.n0t a hardc0re guy liZning 2 chris br0wn!
-g0t it?
Thursday, March 12, 2009
miss independent:D
just in da r0om,listenin 2da radi0 2 a s0ng MISS INDEPENDENT.oh well,.hu w0uldnt admire miss independent out there,right?haha... (^.~).v
nweiz,.i g0t headache.i didn't sleep last night,up t0 n0w. n0thin's really bugging me in my head..i just cant sleep.. ai...
watched hannah m0ntana's c0mplete seas0n1 dvd da wh0le day!..i kn0w..i kn0w!,datz a bit kiddie stuff,.but it was ac2ualy nice watchin dem..it was pretty hum0r0us..en derz n0tin wr0ng wit bringin out da kiddie side of u once in a while,ryt?haha..
was chattin wit abegail,a friend fr0m da Philippines diz m0rning. i didnt really kn0w she's ac2ually fun t0 talk wit. well,.she was an acquaitance wen i came visit da c0untry..we wud say hi wit each other but dat was it!..i th0ught she was just sn0bish and all,.but i guess n0t all impressi0ns last n0t until u get a chance 2 get 2 talk 2 dat pers0n..en get 2 kn0w them,ryt?!.im glad we had dat chat ova YM.she is a charmer en sweet afta all:]
OMG,diz headache is killing me.i gez a bit of rest wud help..
nweiz,.i g0t headache.i didn't sleep last night,up t0 n0w. n0thin's really bugging me in my head..i just cant sleep.. ai...
watched hannah m0ntana's c0mplete seas0n1 dvd da wh0le day!..i kn0w..i kn0w!,datz a bit kiddie stuff,.but it was ac2ualy nice watchin dem..it was pretty hum0r0us..en derz n0tin wr0ng wit bringin out da kiddie side of u once in a while,ryt?haha..
was chattin wit abegail,a friend fr0m da Philippines diz m0rning. i didnt really kn0w she's ac2ually fun t0 talk wit. well,.she was an acquaitance wen i came visit da c0untry..we wud say hi wit each other but dat was it!..i th0ught she was just sn0bish and all,.but i guess n0t all impressi0ns last n0t until u get a chance 2 get 2 talk 2 dat pers0n..en get 2 kn0w them,ryt?!.im glad we had dat chat ova YM.she is a charmer en sweet afta all:]
OMG,diz headache is killing me.i gez a bit of rest wud help..
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
...own it!:)
oh well,well,well...
juz g0t fr0m da sh0wer,.bloggin' while watchin' music vide0s in mah r0om.
n0thin much happened 4da day!,juz watched avril lavigne's c0ncert with sim0ne,ritchie..en miller in da living r0om while waiting f0r da s0ccer 2 sh0w..dey had a m0ney-bet ova it,.s0 dey had 2 watch.. especially sim0ne is a huge manchestr united fan!..as4me?!,i am n0t really into sp0rts,.s0..haha..,juz went inside da r0om.lol.
i still cant get ova wit avril lavigne's guitar she used in dat c0ncert,OMG!..
nweiz,.rearranged p0siti0ns in da bedr0om..en it went out just fine!..
well,n0thin'much 2 say 4 n0w,.s0,g0tta hush..en check my fwenz outside..i w0nda wh0's winnin' s0 far:D
peace!",v
juz g0t fr0m da sh0wer,.bloggin' while watchin' music vide0s in mah r0om.
n0thin much happened 4da day!,juz watched avril lavigne's c0ncert with sim0ne,ritchie..en miller in da living r0om while waiting f0r da s0ccer 2 sh0w..dey had a m0ney-bet ova it,.s0 dey had 2 watch.. especially sim0ne is a huge manchestr united fan!..as4me?!,i am n0t really into sp0rts,.s0..haha..,juz went inside da r0om.lol.
i still cant get ova wit avril lavigne's guitar she used in dat c0ncert,OMG!..
nweiz,.rearranged p0siti0ns in da bedr0om..en it went out just fine!..
well,n0thin'much 2 say 4 n0w,.s0,g0tta hush..en check my fwenz outside..i w0nda wh0's winnin' s0 far:D
peace!",v
THIS OLD SONG...
...i didnt want to listen to our old s0ng
...suddenly it has been played after so long
...i wanted to cry but i want u to know i didnt
...cuz i waited for so long that someday when it played,
i wouldn't.
...i have prayed that s0meday i'll be okay.
...that when i hear them i could just walk away.
...it hurt s0 much that after s0 long i c0uldn't do just as that..
...cuz when i hear them,it reminded me i fell f0r that.
...i wanted our mem0ries to disappear.
...i w0uld dr0wn myself with emptiness to make it all unclear.
...i w0uld dance ar0und with happy s0ngs,
...s0 i w0uld f0rget y0u left me all alone.
...after many trying of f0rgetting y0u,
...fate has a funny way f0r me t0 think of y0u.
...i am sad h0w c0uld fate d0 this..
...because this old s0ng carries mem0ries...
...but then i realized it wasn't s0 painful anym0re.
...i remember everythingbut i c0uldn't feel the same as bef0re.
...c0uld that be dat i finally m0ved on...
...that is why they started playing again,
this old s0ng...
°°~eSzhEn®
...suddenly it has been played after so long
...i wanted to cry but i want u to know i didnt
...cuz i waited for so long that someday when it played,
i wouldn't.
...i have prayed that s0meday i'll be okay.
...that when i hear them i could just walk away.
...it hurt s0 much that after s0 long i c0uldn't do just as that..
...cuz when i hear them,it reminded me i fell f0r that.
...i wanted our mem0ries to disappear.
...i w0uld dr0wn myself with emptiness to make it all unclear.
...i w0uld dance ar0und with happy s0ngs,
...s0 i w0uld f0rget y0u left me all alone.
...after many trying of f0rgetting y0u,
...fate has a funny way f0r me t0 think of y0u.
...i am sad h0w c0uld fate d0 this..
...because this old s0ng carries mem0ries...
...but then i realized it wasn't s0 painful anym0re.
...i remember everythingbut i c0uldn't feel the same as bef0re.
...c0uld that be dat i finally m0ved on...
...that is why they started playing again,
this old s0ng...
°°~eSzhEn®
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
hmm..where were we?!,oh yeah..ritchie asked me 2 grab breakfast at his fave rest0,.it was.W0W!,n0w i cant blame da guy f0r pullin me der everytime,alth0 it was always full s0 u really hav 2make reservati0n 1st.luckily,.we g0t a sp0t diz time ar0und.en i cant blame him 4 makin' a title 4 it.."da best breakfast in t0wn"..its definitely w0rth of wakin' up early in da m0rnin en drive off dat place:)
s0,.afta breakfast,we went straight t0 SANDTON CITY en watch a m0vie «again!!!».
we watched SLAMD0G MILLIONAIRE!,omg!,it was difinitely A MUST WATCH M0VIE!,n0 w0nder why it w0n da OSCAR,if u c0mpletely think life is unfair,.den take a time t0 watch dat m0vie.
neh0w,.ritchie b0ught me THE BEST DAMN TOUR C0NCERT of AVRIL LAVIGNE.en OMG!..i hav c0mpilati0ns of her perf0rmances,c0ncerts.but,wh0aw.IT IS A MUST HAVE 4 avril lavigne's fanatic like me!.i th0t i hav seen it all,but diz is DA BEST DAMN PERFORMANCE of her.i hav seen her play guitar in her c0ncerts,.but guys.she plays pian0,.drums..en RAPS-!datz a talent!!
s0,.afta breakfast,we went straight t0 SANDTON CITY en watch a m0vie «again!!!».
we watched SLAMD0G MILLIONAIRE!,omg!,it was difinitely A MUST WATCH M0VIE!,n0 w0nder why it w0n da OSCAR,if u c0mpletely think life is unfair,.den take a time t0 watch dat m0vie.
neh0w,.ritchie b0ught me THE BEST DAMN TOUR C0NCERT of AVRIL LAVIGNE.en OMG!..i hav c0mpilati0ns of her perf0rmances,c0ncerts.but,wh0aw.IT IS A MUST HAVE 4 avril lavigne's fanatic like me!.i th0t i hav seen it all,but diz is DA BEST DAMN PERFORMANCE of her.i hav seen her play guitar in her c0ncerts,.but guys.she plays pian0,.drums..en RAPS-!datz a talent!!
c0nfused...911
juz w0ke up diz m0rning waiting f0r my c0ffee. me and ritchie rented m0vies yesterday and we watched 5of them,with0ut restin'our eyes...,fr0m disc t0 an0ther disc.
my m0m called yesterday and she was giving me an opti0n."to stay" or "to leave" this city. i am g0nna w0rk hard my ass off and study at da same time. maybe opp0rtunity is right here,n0t in bl0emf0ntein. but my m0m has given me an opti0n that if i will g0 back with them to bloemf0ntein,.i can still c0ntinue my studies anyway. all i have to do is do s0me paperw0rks like an admin stuff at my dad's business.,en i will get 2 study fulltime in da m0rning.. n0t bad at all- but,n0w that i have started a life ova here?,OMG,.its a very g0od persuading fr0m my m0m,especially i dont have to pay f0r my own studies but them.. but,hayy..i dunn0.
h0w ab0ut ritchie?
en i d0nt wanna go back there empty-handed..
i left the t0wn en at least wen i wanna c0me back,.i wanna bring my achievements h0me with me..
nweiz,.ritchie is stressin' me up 2 eat outside..ciao!.
my m0m called yesterday and she was giving me an opti0n."to stay" or "to leave" this city. i am g0nna w0rk hard my ass off and study at da same time. maybe opp0rtunity is right here,n0t in bl0emf0ntein. but my m0m has given me an opti0n that if i will g0 back with them to bloemf0ntein,.i can still c0ntinue my studies anyway. all i have to do is do s0me paperw0rks like an admin stuff at my dad's business.,en i will get 2 study fulltime in da m0rning.. n0t bad at all- but,n0w that i have started a life ova here?,OMG,.its a very g0od persuading fr0m my m0m,especially i dont have to pay f0r my own studies but them.. but,hayy..i dunn0.
h0w ab0ut ritchie?
en i d0nt wanna go back there empty-handed..
i left the t0wn en at least wen i wanna c0me back,.i wanna bring my achievements h0me with me..
nweiz,.ritchie is stressin' me up 2 eat outside..ciao!.
Sunday, March 08, 2009
TURN IT UP!
..was watching CENTER STAGE: TURN IT UP movie earlier.i really liked it!aside fr0m da dancing r0utines,da st0ry has a lot of less0ns 2 learn.
i can relate 2da st0ry pretty much n0t 2 bec0me a ballerina as a career,but da st0ryline dat s0mewhat s0meh0w,n0t everything you like c0uld happen immediately.A lot of rejection mayb 4 sum of us..perhaps,rejection after rejection..we might hav w0rked in2 sumting really hard our whole lives 2 achieve our dreams,yet life has a funny way of n0t giving them 2u,just like that!,u have 2 earn it.u th0t u hav d0ne hardw0rk m0r dan anyb0dy else..but sumtimes,.not bcuz fate has other plans.,but because fate wants us 2 hold on 2 sumting we really want,yet we easily give up..,tinkin just n0t meant t0 be!..
itz ab0ut a gurl wh0 left da smallt0wn to study ballet in da t0p academy.,but altho she was g0od..she didnt get in.she had g0ne into other directi0n instead.became a waitress..
total opp0site of w0tz been expected.but,in d end,.it wud still be up 2 her,.to give an0do try..
i can relate 2da st0ry pretty much n0t 2 bec0me a ballerina as a career,but da st0ryline dat s0mewhat s0meh0w,n0t everything you like c0uld happen immediately.A lot of rejection mayb 4 sum of us..perhaps,rejection after rejection..we might hav w0rked in2 sumting really hard our whole lives 2 achieve our dreams,yet life has a funny way of n0t giving them 2u,just like that!,u have 2 earn it.u th0t u hav d0ne hardw0rk m0r dan anyb0dy else..but sumtimes,.not bcuz fate has other plans.,but because fate wants us 2 hold on 2 sumting we really want,yet we easily give up..,tinkin just n0t meant t0 be!..
itz ab0ut a gurl wh0 left da smallt0wn to study ballet in da t0p academy.,but altho she was g0od..she didnt get in.she had g0ne into other directi0n instead.became a waitress..
total opp0site of w0tz been expected.but,in d end,.it wud still be up 2 her,.to give an0do try..
Saturday, March 07, 2009
...just.
just in da r0om,watchin avril lavigne's c0ncert,.currently playin "IM WITH Y0U",.one of her old tracks. used 2 l0ve it but it went ova-played...i l0ve her music th0..especially wen im juz in da r0om.i lizen2her..
called my dad,.itz his birthday 2day.
my sista is out,wit da rest of my friends...at da TAT0O PARTY,obvi0usly,.i aint g0t one,lol...piercings,yeah..haha..n0t an excuse,ei?,.juz wanna be wit my bf ac2ually...lma0.
was chattin diz aftan0on wit diz oda dude at FRIENDSTER,.en was speakin ab0ut his ex.he was heartbr0ken,t0tally..i was kinda givin him s0me advise..en im s0 thankful i am s0 over dat situati0n...
waaaah,"d0nt tell me" is n0w playin.. l0ve it!
s0,.it was my 1st time 2 play guitar in fr0nt of my b0yfriend on thursday...yihee!..
hmm..thinkin of gettin a new ac0ustic guitar th0ugh..hehe...anyone t0 sp0ns0r me?LMA0.
s0..im kinda talking crap n0w..en betta get back wit w0t im watchin...«alth0 ive watched it a milli0n times already,lol..»
s0..h0ws my life lately???!!..
--really nice!.. :D
called my dad,.itz his birthday 2day.
my sista is out,wit da rest of my friends...at da TAT0O PARTY,obvi0usly,.i aint g0t one,lol...piercings,yeah..haha..n0t an excuse,ei?,.juz wanna be wit my bf ac2ually...lma0.
was chattin diz aftan0on wit diz oda dude at FRIENDSTER,.en was speakin ab0ut his ex.he was heartbr0ken,t0tally..i was kinda givin him s0me advise..en im s0 thankful i am s0 over dat situati0n...
waaaah,"d0nt tell me" is n0w playin.. l0ve it!
s0,.it was my 1st time 2 play guitar in fr0nt of my b0yfriend on thursday...yihee!..
hmm..thinkin of gettin a new ac0ustic guitar th0ugh..hehe...anyone t0 sp0ns0r me?LMA0.
s0..im kinda talking crap n0w..en betta get back wit w0t im watchin...«alth0 ive watched it a milli0n times already,lol..»
s0..h0ws my life lately???!!..
--really nice!.. :D
Friday, March 06, 2009
yeah,.23 baby!..
...well,.im 23 years old n0w baby!,LÖL..it feels s0 g0od..yet,i kn0w an0ther challenge i have tah face in an0ther ordinary phase of living...maybe much harder,but i kn0w i have learnt s0 much in the past experience,..s0 it might be harder,.yet easier!..kn0w w0t i mean?!
i have celebrated my bday at Grayst0n..da 1st tym!..2nd was at Chit0'S place..en da 3rd time was at my friend's h0use...CHERRY's.
i didnt plan of celebratin it at da bar..or anywhere else...but a h0useparty rather. i just wanna be wit them...have a n0rmal c0nversati0n...and have fun!
my friends b0ught me presents.i am freakin t0uched...i juz dunn0 h0w 2 react quite well becuz i d0nt wanna be seen dramatic just over their presents.. i have received a watch,CDs,dvd..etc,etc. hmm,based on pers0nality maybe?lma0.. and an0ther one t0ok me by surprised..richard b0ught me a p0rtable dvd cuz perhaps he kn0ws i like watchin m0vie en i l0ve music??..lol.w0w..en my sista as well had b0ught me cd en dvd dat i cant st0p playin since i g0t dem..lol. w0w!
i have celebrated my bday at Grayst0n..da 1st tym!..2nd was at Chit0'S place..en da 3rd time was at my friend's h0use...CHERRY's.
i didnt plan of celebratin it at da bar..or anywhere else...but a h0useparty rather. i just wanna be wit them...have a n0rmal c0nversati0n...and have fun!
my friends b0ught me presents.i am freakin t0uched...i juz dunn0 h0w 2 react quite well becuz i d0nt wanna be seen dramatic just over their presents.. i have received a watch,CDs,dvd..etc,etc. hmm,based on pers0nality maybe?lma0.. and an0ther one t0ok me by surprised..richard b0ught me a p0rtable dvd cuz perhaps he kn0ws i like watchin m0vie en i l0ve music??..lol.w0w..en my sista as well had b0ught me cd en dvd dat i cant st0p playin since i g0t dem..lol. w0w!
Tuesday, March 03, 2009
i did n0thing special f0r the day, just me and ritchie watching m0vie in the living r0om. he's g0t flu, i am s0 w0rried.. kinda just layback and yet,s0 sweet of him,he still v0lunteered t0 c0ok the dinner f0r me «as im writing this...»
listening 2 Demi Lovato's single... and the w0rds are just s0 uplifting.
i've been thinking ab0ut realistic g0als..en i can't wait t0 start. but ofc0urs,as have been menti0ned..it is called "realistic" f0r s0me reas0ns,right? LMAO.
unf0rtunately,.i sh0uld think ab0ut the p0ssible situati0n that may happen in then next 3 m0nths and other barriers. but as of n0w,i am happy with all my plans!..i just d0nt wanna waste time..especially with th0se crabmentality-peepz.
my birthday is c0ming up.. 2 m0re sleeps en whalaaaaah!,i'll be 23!;)
i didnt kn0w i'll be this happy again... {do i really have t0 menti0n da w0rd "happy" everytime?.LOL.}.
if only s0me pe0ple can be happy 4me as well....
listening 2 Demi Lovato's single... and the w0rds are just s0 uplifting.
i've been thinking ab0ut realistic g0als..en i can't wait t0 start. but ofc0urs,as have been menti0ned..it is called "realistic" f0r s0me reas0ns,right? LMAO.
unf0rtunately,.i sh0uld think ab0ut the p0ssible situati0n that may happen in then next 3 m0nths and other barriers. but as of n0w,i am happy with all my plans!..i just d0nt wanna waste time..especially with th0se crabmentality-peepz.
my birthday is c0ming up.. 2 m0re sleeps en whalaaaaah!,i'll be 23!;)
i didnt kn0w i'll be this happy again... {do i really have t0 menti0n da w0rd "happy" everytime?.LOL.}.
if only s0me pe0ple can be happy 4me as well....
CAN HARDLY SLEEP...
hayy..its 4o'clock in da m0rning en i can hardly sleep. And h0urs had passed,i have been thinking.. i wasted my time thinkin about whatever badthings happened in the past. I have realized h0w lucky i am now datjuz when i th0ught time is s0 slow that i'd like to start over..just as so it hit my head,i have started over a long time ago.
It to0k me s0metime t0 realize them because i was s0 busy thinkin about them..
i lo0ked ar0und and hey?..a l0t in my life has changed.In fact,my life is s0 much better 2 w0rry about other unnecessary things.I get to study still..while w0rking at the same time,acc0m0dation en f0od allowance being paid out by the c0mpany,aside 4rm salary!,a very loving b0yfriend,i still g0t my sister,my friends;s0me of my family..en yet,i have realized,.a gurl dat was just leaving in a quiet small t0wn b4.,is n0w here livin a life in an upt0wn city!.. chasin dreams...
Gradually,i am getting there;) en its all never-ending p0ssibilities...
It to0k me s0metime t0 realize them because i was s0 busy thinkin about them..
i lo0ked ar0und and hey?..a l0t in my life has changed.In fact,my life is s0 much better 2 w0rry about other unnecessary things.I get to study still..while w0rking at the same time,acc0m0dation en f0od allowance being paid out by the c0mpany,aside 4rm salary!,a very loving b0yfriend,i still g0t my sister,my friends;s0me of my family..en yet,i have realized,.a gurl dat was just leaving in a quiet small t0wn b4.,is n0w here livin a life in an upt0wn city!.. chasin dreams...
Gradually,i am getting there;) en its all never-ending p0ssibilities...
Monday, March 02, 2009
...JD did it again!..löl.
hmmm,i tink i was supp0sed 2 give u an update regardin da breakfast i had da other day...kn0w w0t?,it was divine..!,mmm,.mmm,,mmmm!;] definitely a c0meback!.
afta bfast,.went straight 2a vide0st0re en rent m0vies asusual..ma0.
oh btw,.yes2rday..tryin tah finish th0se m0vies we rented..whatta m0vie marath0n!.my sp0rt dat i tink a crown i can pass on t0 my b0yfriend,richard n0wadays.löl.
afta watchin,.m0m called en my fwenz waitin 4me a Grayst0n,organized a lil inh0use drinking sessi0n wit my fav0urite engineers,haha.. hmm.,well..2of my fwenz had an early pass0ut afta drinkin d0wnsh0ts...en da other 1 threw up on his supp0sed-2-be bed at that night,t0o drunk 2 drink en drive.lma0.
we had c0ntinue da sessi0n till 5 in da m0rning..en had t0 finish all da ciders,apples0ur,da black one,.half of da wine,en mr.JD..löl.yup,my pareng jack daniels did it again,lol..en surprisingly,n0t drunk at all..perhaps,a very nice en l0ng c0nversati0n wit a friend.
i had fun.we had fun!.itz been a long time sinz i last drink.
afta bfast,.went straight 2a vide0st0re en rent m0vies asusual..ma0.
oh btw,.yes2rday..tryin tah finish th0se m0vies we rented..whatta m0vie marath0n!.my sp0rt dat i tink a crown i can pass on t0 my b0yfriend,richard n0wadays.löl.
afta watchin,.m0m called en my fwenz waitin 4me a Grayst0n,organized a lil inh0use drinking sessi0n wit my fav0urite engineers,haha.. hmm.,well..2of my fwenz had an early pass0ut afta drinkin d0wnsh0ts...en da other 1 threw up on his supp0sed-2-be bed at that night,t0o drunk 2 drink en drive.lma0.
we had c0ntinue da sessi0n till 5 in da m0rning..en had t0 finish all da ciders,apples0ur,da black one,.half of da wine,en mr.JD..löl.yup,my pareng jack daniels did it again,lol..en surprisingly,n0t drunk at all..perhaps,a very nice en l0ng c0nversati0n wit a friend.
i had fun.we had fun!.itz been a long time sinz i last drink.
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